A Little Personal
It's morning and like usual I'm having a hard time falling asleep. I haven't blogged here for the longest too, and I know my latest entries have been shallow and about makeup and games. I hate how I'm always worried if I'm sharing too much about myself, but I'm going to try my best to be honest.
My pal Vince said that fear is a common theme that occurs in my entries a lot. I flipped back and realized that it's true. I'm always afraid of where I'm going, what words I share with others, and whether I'd regret. I know we're all probably scared of the same thing, but I sure as hell don't mind spamming that fear all over my entries. It's not fun to be a downer.
I used to write about the fun things that happened to me but that was boring to read. Guess I suck at recalling awesome stuff. I've never really been a storyteller to start with.
Not sharing enough in person and in blog, and sharing downer things. Oh me. I felt so bad that I made another blog just to share to a handful of people the crap that I'm afraid to tell everyone else.
Since it's so easy for me to list my problems and find the root of the cause, I don't see how I can just sit here and not change things. Why does it always seem like I'm at some deadlock? Am I lazy or just that conservative to change? How much can I do? What is real?
My pal Vince said that fear is a common theme that occurs in my entries a lot. I flipped back and realized that it's true. I'm always afraid of where I'm going, what words I share with others, and whether I'd regret. I know we're all probably scared of the same thing, but I sure as hell don't mind spamming that fear all over my entries. It's not fun to be a downer.
I used to write about the fun things that happened to me but that was boring to read. Guess I suck at recalling awesome stuff. I've never really been a storyteller to start with.
Not sharing enough in person and in blog, and sharing downer things. Oh me. I felt so bad that I made another blog just to share to a handful of people the crap that I'm afraid to tell everyone else.
Since it's so easy for me to list my problems and find the root of the cause, I don't see how I can just sit here and not change things. Why does it always seem like I'm at some deadlock? Am I lazy or just that conservative to change? How much can I do? What is real?