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Okay soooo, apparently I haven't updated in a while. And its not like I can even say that nothing's happened, because my life is so obviously interesting that something must've happened. =p So without further ado, here is an update:
Well to start out with, band is over. I am officially no longer a Flyerette. Its kinda sad, and at the last practice I almost cried...almost. I have yet to shed a single tear over the loss of this season because it was soooo stressful. I did, however, shed many tears when Marabeth decided to be the biggest bitch in the world and try to contradict the girls on every possible occasion, lied about decisions we made, and tried to lower our grade...IN MARCHING BAND! So yeah, I got super close to the other Flyerettes, which was really cool. I guess we're kinda cliquey and stuff, but I love the girls to death. We decided that we are all going to the POD formal this year, so I will actually have people to hang out with instead of being lonely without Brian, Allie, Kim, Jon, Steph, and Kenny. Plus Hunter and Molly will still be there, so that's cool too.
I just got back from Thanksgiving break, which was sooo much fun. We'll start with the sad stuff though. My grandma is in the hospital. She had to go through surgery because whe had colon cancer. They caught it though, and it looks like she is going to be okay. The rough part is now with the recovery. Her body is just so weak at this point and her lungs suck from smoking for so long that the surgery was really hard on her. Also, Jimmy's grandma died the morning after Thanksgiving. I wish I could have been there for him instead of being in Pittsburgh...
That being said, (and now I feel terrible), I had an amazing time. I got to hang out with Tressa, Lindsay, Chris, and all the peeps at Eat n Park. Work for 3 out of the 5 days I was home and hung out with Linds every one of those days. It was awesome. I was also on the South side for 3 of those days. And I got to meet some of Tressa's friends from school who were really cool and saw Molly and Hunter and met some of their friends plus siblings. I also made a much needed 250 dollars, which will hopefullyget me through Christmas with the money from working at VWK as well. I love working there. I mean, I know that I would hate it if I was there all the time, but the people there are great, and I always have fun, even if we are getting our asses kicked...
And speaking of getting asses kicked, wtf is up with the Steelers!? If I beleived in a higher power I would say that someone wants me to learn to be okay with losing, because that seems to be the theme of this football season. Every single team I root for seems to lose the games I watch. Arg, it is really frustrating. I think I am going to start adopting little Bisignani's "low expectations" philosophy. I mean for crying out loud, we barely beat the Browns! Aaaaand we got beat by Oakland! OAKLAND! Rar! >0 I won't go into the plethera of things that are going wrong with our team right now, but at least I don't have to sweat over every game anymore since we have absolutely no chance of going to the playoffs anymore. Go Chargers!
Things at school are going alright. I have a buttload of papers to write and as usual my math teacher is an idiot, but really nothing else to report on that front. Socially, I have been hanging out with Brian, Allie, Snyd, and JT a lot more lately. Its bee super fun and I hope it continues like this. I mean, understandably it will be harder in December because of all the stuff everyone has going on, but yeah. I don't think I am going to be able to make it for the New Years Eve party though, which bums me out.
I am also doing a ton better with being by myself. Really around two weeks ago I would go crazy any time I was by myself with no one to talk to or hang out with. It was ridiculous how much I cried and punched walls and threw pillows, etc. I always want people to see me as a strong person, but I need pepople more than anything. I had that I am so dependent, but there it is. I had a talk with Paul, though, and I feel a ton better now. He basically just told me that I need to let stuff go. Its not something that I have ever been particularly good at, and I am still stuggling, but it was nice to hear someoen else say it. I don't know why it helped, because I've told myself that millions times before, but it did. I still have not let some things go, and I doubt I really ever will, but at least I can deal with it better now and not let it rule my life.
So yeah, I've been stressed financially, academically, and socially, but I'm getting through it and all in all things are looking pretty good for me right now. Not in the long run, I mean I obviously still don't have any idea what I am going to do with myself after college, but I'll get there eventually. Baby steps, baby steps. Its about all I am capable of right now. Damn not having any long term plan making ability!
Well to start out with, band is over. I am officially no longer a Flyerette. Its kinda sad, and at the last practice I almost cried...almost. I have yet to shed a single tear over the loss of this season because it was soooo stressful. I did, however, shed many tears when Marabeth decided to be the biggest bitch in the world and try to contradict the girls on every possible occasion, lied about decisions we made, and tried to lower our grade...IN MARCHING BAND! So yeah, I got super close to the other Flyerettes, which was really cool. I guess we're kinda cliquey and stuff, but I love the girls to death. We decided that we are all going to the POD formal this year, so I will actually have people to hang out with instead of being lonely without Brian, Allie, Kim, Jon, Steph, and Kenny. Plus Hunter and Molly will still be there, so that's cool too.
I just got back from Thanksgiving break, which was sooo much fun. We'll start with the sad stuff though. My grandma is in the hospital. She had to go through surgery because whe had colon cancer. They caught it though, and it looks like she is going to be okay. The rough part is now with the recovery. Her body is just so weak at this point and her lungs suck from smoking for so long that the surgery was really hard on her. Also, Jimmy's grandma died the morning after Thanksgiving. I wish I could have been there for him instead of being in Pittsburgh...
That being said, (and now I feel terrible), I had an amazing time. I got to hang out with Tressa, Lindsay, Chris, and all the peeps at Eat n Park. Work for 3 out of the 5 days I was home and hung out with Linds every one of those days. It was awesome. I was also on the South side for 3 of those days. And I got to meet some of Tressa's friends from school who were really cool and saw Molly and Hunter and met some of their friends plus siblings. I also made a much needed 250 dollars, which will hopefullyget me through Christmas with the money from working at VWK as well. I love working there. I mean, I know that I would hate it if I was there all the time, but the people there are great, and I always have fun, even if we are getting our asses kicked...
And speaking of getting asses kicked, wtf is up with the Steelers!? If I beleived in a higher power I would say that someone wants me to learn to be okay with losing, because that seems to be the theme of this football season. Every single team I root for seems to lose the games I watch. Arg, it is really frustrating. I think I am going to start adopting little Bisignani's "low expectations" philosophy. I mean for crying out loud, we barely beat the Browns! Aaaaand we got beat by Oakland! OAKLAND! Rar! >0 I won't go into the plethera of things that are going wrong with our team right now, but at least I don't have to sweat over every game anymore since we have absolutely no chance of going to the playoffs anymore. Go Chargers!
Things at school are going alright. I have a buttload of papers to write and as usual my math teacher is an idiot, but really nothing else to report on that front. Socially, I have been hanging out with Brian, Allie, Snyd, and JT a lot more lately. Its bee super fun and I hope it continues like this. I mean, understandably it will be harder in December because of all the stuff everyone has going on, but yeah. I don't think I am going to be able to make it for the New Years Eve party though, which bums me out.
I am also doing a ton better with being by myself. Really around two weeks ago I would go crazy any time I was by myself with no one to talk to or hang out with. It was ridiculous how much I cried and punched walls and threw pillows, etc. I always want people to see me as a strong person, but I need pepople more than anything. I had that I am so dependent, but there it is. I had a talk with Paul, though, and I feel a ton better now. He basically just told me that I need to let stuff go. Its not something that I have ever been particularly good at, and I am still stuggling, but it was nice to hear someoen else say it. I don't know why it helped, because I've told myself that millions times before, but it did. I still have not let some things go, and I doubt I really ever will, but at least I can deal with it better now and not let it rule my life.
So yeah, I've been stressed financially, academically, and socially, but I'm getting through it and all in all things are looking pretty good for me right now. Not in the long run, I mean I obviously still don't have any idea what I am going to do with myself after college, but I'll get there eventually. Baby steps, baby steps. Its about all I am capable of right now. Damn not having any long term plan making ability!