寂しさ？！

[windaze]

朝３時のLSはなんか怖いくらい静かだった。。。　私と話す相手はないうちにここに来て、書き始めた。　こんなの寂しい気持ちは暫く持っていなかった。　現実にいるときは、そういう場合が珍しいと思う。　前の人が何か言ったら、普通は聞かなくちゃ。　それに、人が質問を聞けば、せめてうんなんて言うのが普通だと思う。　でも、オンラインゲームは別の獣わね。。。

一週間ぐらいまえ、高校から知ってる友達は他の町に引越してしまった。さようならと言った日は、その友達は悲しい顔をした。　そんなの顔を見ると、寂しくなる。

じゃ。。。ここまで書いておく。。またにゃ～

Comments

[rramkissoon]

I know it's different for each person, but I can only really speak from my own experience.... and I strongly believe in the philosophy that "this too will pass" when it comes to my feelings of loneliness.

I grew up on an island in the Caribbean. My dad died when I was 8 and we ended up moving from the farm I'd lived on for my entire life to a tiny apartment in the city. After my 18th birthday the next major move took me to Florida - away from all my childhood friends, classmates and relatives. I've stayed in touch with some more than others through email but it has been difficult being separated from everything I miss. Even when in Florida I got involved in a few online groups - through gaming, work and forums. Mir and I met online. Most of those people I met online and then at the conventions are still friends and still stay in touch - some after being absent from my life for years at a time. It didn't help that I've now moved more than a dozen times in my life to new towns.

Now with both of us once more living in a different country than where we grew up, the loneliness does hit from time to time. It seems I never see the people I miss in person any more. But this too will pass...

I have my online friends and email, my phone calls to my friends and relatives far away, and the new folks I have befriended here on the new island I live on. Life is full of change and so far it's always been good to look forward to what tomorrow can bring... be cheerful! Strive to be happy! :)

:)

[windaze]

Thanks for the reply Ari. I shouldn't have much to complain about compared to you >_> Both my parents are alive and well and I don't move around that much. The only move I did was when I was 13 or so. My parents brought me unwillingly to Canada even though I didn't want to come. Then school was boring because I had already studied the material that was taught here. The teachers thought I picked things up fast, but it was because I had already learnt what they were teaching >_>;;;;
But I guess that was fortunate because it meant I could slack off...or maybe it wasn't so good because I never had good work habits since junior high OTZ.
I agree with you...that loneliness is passing :) But last night seemed eerily quiet and lonely.. C'est la vie.