summer...
after my first year of college i felt more independent. I enjored my distance away from my family, sad i know... When i got home you'd think that "yay im home" but it doesn't feel that way. I dont feel at home here, i dont like the way im always at home sitting on my ass watching tv. when at school im normally up and about not watching tv and being a lazy bumb.
and things with my sister haven't been great. we're not talking... i guess i dont care, but sometimes i wonder why she treats me like crap. i feel like she hates me... we're always fighting, i guess you'd think that its normal, but punching each other isn't a good healthy sisterly fight. our fights have been starting to be a little more frequent, i guess it has something to do with my part. sometimes i say things i shouldnt say, like saying things that are on my mind without thinking of the consequences.
as of right now, i cant wait til her boyfriend comes back from iraq so he can sweep her off her feet, not only for her benefit, but for mine as well. i want him to take her back to his hometown New Jersey so i dont have to see her anymore when i come back for a visit from college. and also so i can have my own room again. basically because for the whole summer i've been sleeping in the living room on the floor... becuz the apartment that we're living in is only a 2 bedroom.. one for my parent's and the other for my sister and her friend. who by the way i hope she moves in with the boyfriend.
when i go back to school, im gona miss my mom..and i guess im gona miss my dad too..he's been a lil annoying, im sorry to say, but really he has. i wasn't used to being around them 24/7. i basically couldn't leave becuz i didn't have a car. and i obviously couldn't stand my sister.
i just wasn't at home...
but soon.. i will be...
and things with my sister haven't been great. we're not talking... i guess i dont care, but sometimes i wonder why she treats me like crap. i feel like she hates me... we're always fighting, i guess you'd think that its normal, but punching each other isn't a good healthy sisterly fight. our fights have been starting to be a little more frequent, i guess it has something to do with my part. sometimes i say things i shouldnt say, like saying things that are on my mind without thinking of the consequences.
as of right now, i cant wait til her boyfriend comes back from iraq so he can sweep her off her feet, not only for her benefit, but for mine as well. i want him to take her back to his hometown New Jersey so i dont have to see her anymore when i come back for a visit from college. and also so i can have my own room again. basically because for the whole summer i've been sleeping in the living room on the floor... becuz the apartment that we're living in is only a 2 bedroom.. one for my parent's and the other for my sister and her friend. who by the way i hope she moves in with the boyfriend.
when i go back to school, im gona miss my mom..and i guess im gona miss my dad too..he's been a lil annoying, im sorry to say, but really he has. i wasn't used to being around them 24/7. i basically couldn't leave becuz i didn't have a car. and i obviously couldn't stand my sister.
i just wasn't at home...
but soon.. i will be...