I know. She helped me last night. As did Sarah. I don't know what I would do without my friends, especially now. I'm not having so great a time. And it's all my fault - but I'm getting away. When I get back from New York, I hope to have sorted out some things.
i have no idea what this is about, and frankly i don't think i have the right to know. All i want to say is this...
::GLOMPAGE!!::
you can tell me anything, no mater how silly it sounds or how bad you feel. I feel i can do the same to you, and knowing i could write you made me feel better even if i didn't actually do it.
Thank you Andrew. I don't mind if Adrian tells you, I just can't say anything right now... once I get back from New York I hope to have sorted out my mind a little bit. I just need to get away from here. *sigh* I guess you're never really who you think you are, and you can suprise yourself always. And not necessarily in a good way. I know I can talk to you, and I thank you. I will. I'm just so dead right now. I thought about killing myself, then realized there weren't any sharp enough objects around, then realized that would be stupid anyway. Thank you for being my friend.
ok, listen, i'm gonna hug you until i finish what i have to say. Me, adrian, sarah, we all love you too much to lose you forever. If you kill yourself to escape the pain, you would only be hurting those who love you.
::loosens hug::
jessica told me that, and i had to deal with it,
::lets go of hug::
you can talk to me, i'll talk back, it sounds like you are going through the same thing that i went through. it's hard, but you can survive, with luck you won't be as damaged as i was by it, and part of that is your strong nature.
I love you, and thank you for being mine.
do you have a phone # i can call? maybe we can chat some night when will is gone?
Sorry it took me so long to reply. I've been so effin' busy and tired. ::returning massive hug:: Don't worry about me. I would never do anything like that. I used to think about it a lot, but that is why I started taking medication - :-), I think I'm okay, as okay as possible, for now, but I just feel down. It's understandable, though. I don't know if I have your e-mail address, but I'm sure it's on your info. page, and I'll e-mail you my number. Thank you for everything, Andrew.
"'We are those who do not disconnect the values of their minds from the actions of their bodies.' You said it in your broadcast tonight. But you knew it, then, on that morning in Ellis Wyatt's house. You knew that all those insults I was throwing at you were the fullest confession of love a man could make. You knew that the physical desire I was damning as our mutual shame, is neither physical nor an expression of one's body, but the expression of one's mind's deepest values, whether one has the courage to know it or not. That was why you laughed at me as you did, wasn't it?" -- Hank Rearden from Atlas Shrugged by Ayn Rand
New York was fun... I had a lot of stuff on my mind, but I still had fun. :-) I'm hoping to do some massive updating soon. It might not be 'till after next Wed. - all my major homework will be done by then, but it will be done, I swear.
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I sometimes feel i monopolize her time, but it's her choice to do what she does.
Sara, you are so lucky to have adrian as a friend
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I love you, Sara. You're not evil. You're not bad. If I'm right, I know this -- it was wrong, but it seems your sorrow outweighs the crime.
::hugs you tightly::
~Satal~
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::GLOMPAGE!!::
you can tell me anything, no mater how silly it sounds or how bad you feel. I feel i can do the same to you, and knowing i could write you made me feel better even if i didn't actually do it.
You are special and valuable, never forget that.
::lets go of hug::
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Thank you Andrew. I don't mind if Adrian tells you, I just can't say anything right now... once I get back from New York I hope to have sorted out my mind a little bit. I just need to get away from here. *sigh* I guess you're never really who you think you are, and you can suprise yourself always. And not necessarily in a good way. I know I can talk to you, and I thank you. I will. I'm just so dead right now. I thought about killing myself, then realized there weren't any sharp enough objects around, then realized that would be stupid anyway. Thank you for being my friend.
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ok, listen, i'm gonna hug you until i finish what i have to say. Me, adrian, sarah, we all love you too much to lose you forever. If you kill yourself to escape the pain, you would only be hurting those who love you.
::loosens hug::
jessica told me that, and i had to deal with it,
::lets go of hug::
you can talk to me, i'll talk back, it sounds like you are going through the same thing that i went through. it's hard, but you can survive, with luck you won't be as damaged as i was by it, and part of that is your strong nature.
I love you, and thank you for being mine.
do you have a phone # i can call? maybe we can chat some night when will is gone?
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love,
me
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