Unfair, But Likely
I'm just afraid that Ian thinks I'm "just another girl" who had a crush on 'im, just some girl who liked 'im, so he tells this "non-special girl" that he just wants to be frieds, and now everythin' is back to normal and a big ol' ray o' freakin' sunshine, and he didn't loose a thing. And I can't prove myself; that, (and I quote this from my highly skeptical dad who knows me very well, skeptical mindja,) "I could never be 'just a normal girl' or 'the girl next door' even if I tried." Yet he acts like nothin' happened, with sickeningly casual and nonchalant complexion.
I'm afraid dad's right. I'm afraid that what he said is 100% correct, that guys see the book cover as unfashionable, and it doesn't matter if the 'story' would blow 'em outta the water. They would no longer even be bothered to OPEN the damn thing, forget checkin' out my first couple pages. He suggested that I try wearin' nicer clothes, just to see what happens. Just so they don't think, "oh, she doesn't look like girlfriend material, she just seems like a buddy, one of the guys." (I half wish they were right... if they only new what material I really was inside.) In general, they don't even gimme a single chance!
It would be so pathetic if the true source of all this pain and incessant torture was just from the way I dress. Well- that DOES it! I think I should get tighter shirts, and wear 'em on and off with the baggy shirts I already wear... as my dad said, just to see what happens. I've been told that I should wear tighter things more often, and I laughed and shook my head at this, thinkin' it was baggy all the way for me, dude. But things have gone too far- I wanna see if this would at least get me noticed. I know I've been checked out with tighter stuff on. Besides, it doesn't technically make me any more feminine, ya know? If I don't change my pants too, just the shirt, and still wear the guy khakis and guy tennis. 'Cause dude, guys not only wear tight tops too, some of 'em are bothered to show off what they got underneath in gym! ...*Shudders* along with all of their boxers... Still, I asked my mom if I could go... *Shudders again* shoppin', maybe not with her though. I -HATE- shoppin' with mommy. But shoppin' with Caitlin is fun, and dude, I can only picture the look on 'er face when I tell 'er what I wanna do. It's almost like I wanna make Ian jealous and remorseful, but I don't 'cause he's my friend.. I've never wanted to make guys regret sayin' no to me. Ever. It's so weird. But I don't really wanna, I mean, he's a good friend of mine, unfortunately nothin' more... Man, if he changed his mind right after I changed my clothes, I would say no. It would be the most stupid reason to go out with anyone- "Hey, before your shirts were funny to read but they were baggy, so I always thought you were fat. But now I realize that you've got a nice figure, and you're hot when you wear the tighter shirts! Will you go out with me?"
Oh brother...
And my friend Natasha, this girl who is very.. girlish beyond words, always seemed to wanna 'feminize' me. Well, that ain't gonna happen, dude. I'm just accentin' the cover.
If they ask, I'll just say that the book didn't wanna be read, didn't need to be read, but it had to be, so the cover had to start attractin' readers.
Later.
I'm afraid dad's right. I'm afraid that what he said is 100% correct, that guys see the book cover as unfashionable, and it doesn't matter if the 'story' would blow 'em outta the water. They would no longer even be bothered to OPEN the damn thing, forget checkin' out my first couple pages. He suggested that I try wearin' nicer clothes, just to see what happens. Just so they don't think, "oh, she doesn't look like girlfriend material, she just seems like a buddy, one of the guys." (I half wish they were right... if they only new what material I really was inside.) In general, they don't even gimme a single chance!
It would be so pathetic if the true source of all this pain and incessant torture was just from the way I dress. Well- that DOES it! I think I should get tighter shirts, and wear 'em on and off with the baggy shirts I already wear... as my dad said, just to see what happens. I've been told that I should wear tighter things more often, and I laughed and shook my head at this, thinkin' it was baggy all the way for me, dude. But things have gone too far- I wanna see if this would at least get me noticed. I know I've been checked out with tighter stuff on. Besides, it doesn't technically make me any more feminine, ya know? If I don't change my pants too, just the shirt, and still wear the guy khakis and guy tennis. 'Cause dude, guys not only wear tight tops too, some of 'em are bothered to show off what they got underneath in gym! ...*Shudders* along with all of their boxers... Still, I asked my mom if I could go... *Shudders again* shoppin', maybe not with her though. I -HATE- shoppin' with mommy. But shoppin' with Caitlin is fun, and dude, I can only picture the look on 'er face when I tell 'er what I wanna do. It's almost like I wanna make Ian jealous and remorseful, but I don't 'cause he's my friend.. I've never wanted to make guys regret sayin' no to me. Ever. It's so weird. But I don't really wanna, I mean, he's a good friend of mine, unfortunately nothin' more... Man, if he changed his mind right after I changed my clothes, I would say no. It would be the most stupid reason to go out with anyone- "Hey, before your shirts were funny to read but they were baggy, so I always thought you were fat. But now I realize that you've got a nice figure, and you're hot when you wear the tighter shirts! Will you go out with me?"
Oh brother...
And my friend Natasha, this girl who is very.. girlish beyond words, always seemed to wanna 'feminize' me. Well, that ain't gonna happen, dude. I'm just accentin' the cover.
If they ask, I'll just say that the book didn't wanna be read, didn't need to be read, but it had to be, so the cover had to start attractin' readers.
Later.