Much MUCH more calm and relaxed.....
I love music. I especially love this song. I love the backround guitar notes in Strokes songs. It's so beautiful.
I've been freaking out lately. Coming to the realization that I just don't want to go to school. I want to stay up late, play video games, work all the time (to make money), have fun spending that money, go to the beach, sleep in until 12.....
I dropped 2 of the 3 classes I'm taking, currently leaving me with English 1A, which is PRETTY easy. I've been freaking out because I know I need to get college under my belt, I don't want to, but have to, but in a lot of ways I DO want to go to college.... it goes on and on....
So I thought a lot and prayed a lot. With the help of Erin, I've come to the realization that it's being in Burbank that isn't helping my college attitude. I have a great job. I have a lot of friends who I want to hang out with all the time. I have a million other things to do rather than go to college. So if I just throw myself into a 4 year, my attitude will change. I'll want to study and get good grades, since that's what I'm there for.
So I would just drive around listening to The Strokes (passing by this song more than any other), allowing my arm to fly through the wind of my open window, and just remembering what I was thinking last year when I decided to take X semesters off college: "Life won't end if you don't get your degree by the time you reach 22". I just felt a lot better.
Just chill out. Take life one step at a time. Go for things when you're ready for them. Set goals, but don't kill yourself trying to live up to someone else's expectations.
I love life.
I've been freaking out lately. Coming to the realization that I just don't want to go to school. I want to stay up late, play video games, work all the time (to make money), have fun spending that money, go to the beach, sleep in until 12.....
I dropped 2 of the 3 classes I'm taking, currently leaving me with English 1A, which is PRETTY easy. I've been freaking out because I know I need to get college under my belt, I don't want to, but have to, but in a lot of ways I DO want to go to college.... it goes on and on....
So I thought a lot and prayed a lot. With the help of Erin, I've come to the realization that it's being in Burbank that isn't helping my college attitude. I have a great job. I have a lot of friends who I want to hang out with all the time. I have a million other things to do rather than go to college. So if I just throw myself into a 4 year, my attitude will change. I'll want to study and get good grades, since that's what I'm there for.
So I would just drive around listening to The Strokes (passing by this song more than any other), allowing my arm to fly through the wind of my open window, and just remembering what I was thinking last year when I decided to take X semesters off college: "Life won't end if you don't get your degree by the time you reach 22". I just felt a lot better.
Just chill out. Take life one step at a time. Go for things when you're ready for them. Set goals, but don't kill yourself trying to live up to someone else's expectations.
I love life.