i feel like i should be singing a rhianna song or something...
I think I've lost my mind.I ...I can't stop. This is addiction at it's worse. I feel dirty, ashamed and wrong. just wrong.
I just can't stop listening to britney spears. my itunes has way to many spears songs on it.
I feel like I can crack a davinci code like mystery if i listen to her music. Like somewhere , I'll be able to point and say " RIGHT THERE!! THAT'S WHERE THAT BITCH CRACKED LIKE AN EGG!"
I'm ...fascinated. It's like a train wreck or car crash. can't stop looking.
le sigh...
*ahem* anyway...
Still playing catch up with school. Need to be done with it all this week. At least I want it to be. It's causing some anxiety, and I'm trying to squash all of that out . Lot's of long nights in my future , i think.
I have an appointment with social services on the 6th. Hopefully I will be able to get benefits so that my medication can at least be covered. without that I'm out of luck .
Suprisingly , heard from paul today. He had said that they didn't allow calls from thier payphone at the rehab, but when he got there, he found out that had changed. So we only got to talk for ten minutes- it was worth it. plans are in the works for me to see him on sunday.
Things are going smooth so far. had a couple of bumpy moments being back and all, but they happen. I can't expect everything to fall into place immediatly or anything.so I'm getting through it.
that's pretty much all that's new or not so new and exciting in my world.
xoxo
I just can't stop listening to britney spears. my itunes has way to many spears songs on it.
I feel like I can crack a davinci code like mystery if i listen to her music. Like somewhere , I'll be able to point and say " RIGHT THERE!! THAT'S WHERE THAT BITCH CRACKED LIKE AN EGG!"
I'm ...fascinated. It's like a train wreck or car crash. can't stop looking.
le sigh...
*ahem* anyway...
Still playing catch up with school. Need to be done with it all this week. At least I want it to be. It's causing some anxiety, and I'm trying to squash all of that out . Lot's of long nights in my future , i think.
I have an appointment with social services on the 6th. Hopefully I will be able to get benefits so that my medication can at least be covered. without that I'm out of luck .
Suprisingly , heard from paul today. He had said that they didn't allow calls from thier payphone at the rehab, but when he got there, he found out that had changed. So we only got to talk for ten minutes- it was worth it. plans are in the works for me to see him on sunday.
Things are going smooth so far. had a couple of bumpy moments being back and all, but they happen. I can't expect everything to fall into place immediatly or anything.so I'm getting through it.
that's pretty much all that's new or not so new and exciting in my world.
xoxo