you my dear, are mentioned in almost every other post, i never said you manipulated me, in fact, we never really knew enough about one another to do such a thing, if such a thing was wanted. you weren't mentioned in those close to my heart, because i truly thought you didn't care anymore, but as well, you weren't in the distant or fuck off category. you were in an un-texted gone but still <3ed category, if that makes sense.
i'm nervous with the whole internet thing, as i discovered someone whom i'd thought cared was joking around with people about me being unbalanced, skitzo, and the exact words..."that girl would get suicidal over a hangnail" were there as well...so i've decided to hold my distance, unless someone else puts forth the effort to stay close. like lahoci. i can't be in any more one-sided friendships. it's to much of a strain on one person to love for two.
you dear, i only wish the best to, and i wish we could speak more, and i could help you out...but the only way i can do that anymore, is over the phone, as i'm rarely near a computer, and you don't want to hold a phone conversation, and even if we did, i don't think we'd accomplish anything, as far as me being helpful, as you're very quiet about anything that's wrong with you, preferring i suppose, to hear everyone else out, and hold both their's and your own burden.
sometimes the weight can get to be to much...if you ever need it lightened, you know for you i'll be here...if you ever want to give me a call...(931)670-4735. that's my neighbor, and he'll bring the phone right over. <3
i'm nervous with the whole internet thing, as i discovered someone whom i'd thought cared was joking around with people about me being unbalanced, skitzo, and the exact words..."that girl would get suicidal over a hangnail" were there as well...so i've decided to hold my distance, unless someone else puts forth the effort to stay close. like lahoci. i can't be in any more one-sided friendships. it's to much of a strain on one person to love for two.
you dear, i only wish the best to, and i wish we could speak more, and i could help you out...but the only way i can do that anymore, is over the phone, as i'm rarely near a computer, and you don't want to hold a phone conversation, and even if we did, i don't think we'd accomplish anything, as far as me being helpful, as you're very quiet about anything that's wrong with you, preferring i suppose, to hear everyone else out, and hold both their's and your own burden.
sometimes the weight can get to be to much...if you ever need it lightened, you know for you i'll be here...if you ever want to give me a call...(931)670-4735. that's my neighbor, and he'll bring the phone right over. <3
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well thanks for having the patience to explain.
stay well, jen. you've got being strong down. <3
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