lonely hour
Do you ever get so caught up in an emotion you lose sight of reality?
Right now I am struggling between the two. He keeps telling me to wait. Things will get better when the show is over. I find that a little hard to swallow. The stupid play shouldn't be the excuse for why things have been the way they have. I don't see how I-his girlfriend, the one who should be there to brighten the day- can be just another complication to his busy rehearsal schedule. I don't understand how I'm able to serve him that extra dosage of stress each morning.
I don't want to be away from him but being with him has been difficult. I keep trying because I know he can be a better person than who he has shown to be for the past few weeks. I know this because I've seen it.
why cant i ever just be in love and not have to deal with all the struggling that comes along with it...
i feel ugly right now
im complaining and im not solving anything by doing so.
maybe im expecting too much from him
maybe im not
i cant help it. im still in love with that guy who used to share journals with me and was there for me when times were tough. that guy who wanted to be everything to me.
what happened to him^^
i wish he was around right now so we could have conversations like we used to.
ughhh...
i cant stand how the passion has faded
because now we hardly ever kiss
Right now I am struggling between the two. He keeps telling me to wait. Things will get better when the show is over. I find that a little hard to swallow. The stupid play shouldn't be the excuse for why things have been the way they have. I don't see how I-his girlfriend, the one who should be there to brighten the day- can be just another complication to his busy rehearsal schedule. I don't understand how I'm able to serve him that extra dosage of stress each morning.
I don't want to be away from him but being with him has been difficult. I keep trying because I know he can be a better person than who he has shown to be for the past few weeks. I know this because I've seen it.
why cant i ever just be in love and not have to deal with all the struggling that comes along with it...
i feel ugly right now
im complaining and im not solving anything by doing so.
maybe im expecting too much from him
maybe im not
i cant help it. im still in love with that guy who used to share journals with me and was there for me when times were tough. that guy who wanted to be everything to me.
what happened to him^^
i wish he was around right now so we could have conversations like we used to.
ughhh...
i cant stand how the passion has faded
because now we hardly ever kiss