awkward silence drives me crazyyy.
goodbye to you. goodbye to everything that i knew. your the one i loved, the one thing that i tried to hold on to.
im listening to michelle branch.. not very "me" but whatever fukk me. no dont. ace said something to me on the phone (i was laying down this made me sit up) he was liek "nina, dont get all pissy w/me.. but maybe you like tom because you see nick wen you look at him. a lil bit of him might seem like tom. and you cant look in toms eyes w/out seeing nick." normally i woulda been like "WTF !!" but i was like "i dont know.. maybe." because you kno wut? I DONT KNOW. god okay.. today i was soo depressed in the afternoon i ran into the locker room locked myself in a bathroom stall and cried my eyes out.. and i cut. i went THREE weeks w/out cutting !! -ashamed-
what the fuck is wrong w/me you guys? i guess i just cant keep anything... i always lose whatever good i get in my life.. i always lose it.
sam made me promise if me n tom break up cuz he cheated on me or sumthin then not to go bak out w/him. i promised i wouldnt.. it was reele hard i was pretty reluctant.
well im gonna go. i love you guys..
cady will be bak tommorow so i have sumthing to look forward to ... ill try to look cute for her ... i miss her soo much.. ill prolly cry wen i see her. omg im such a fukking cry baby !! see thats another thing to add to why im not good enough FOR ANYONE.
im listening to michelle branch.. not very "me" but whatever fukk me. no dont. ace said something to me on the phone (i was laying down this made me sit up) he was liek "nina, dont get all pissy w/me.. but maybe you like tom because you see nick wen you look at him. a lil bit of him might seem like tom. and you cant look in toms eyes w/out seeing nick." normally i woulda been like "WTF !!" but i was like "i dont know.. maybe." because you kno wut? I DONT KNOW. god okay.. today i was soo depressed in the afternoon i ran into the locker room locked myself in a bathroom stall and cried my eyes out.. and i cut. i went THREE weeks w/out cutting !! -ashamed-
what the fuck is wrong w/me you guys? i guess i just cant keep anything... i always lose whatever good i get in my life.. i always lose it.
sam made me promise if me n tom break up cuz he cheated on me or sumthin then not to go bak out w/him. i promised i wouldnt.. it was reele hard i was pretty reluctant.
well im gonna go. i love you guys..
cady will be bak tommorow so i have sumthing to look forward to ... ill try to look cute for her ... i miss her soo much.. ill prolly cry wen i see her. omg im such a fukking cry baby !! see thats another thing to add to why im not good enough FOR ANYONE.