for all of you that want me to change.. or quit cutting. read this.
I have a greatestjournal account, and I'm a member to a community called _knowyoulive and one of the girls that owns the community asked "Can you ever really stop cutting? I mean some people stop for five years and then start again. Sometimes i think once a cutter always a cutter. Some opinions on this would be apreciated." and one of the comments from someone else said "i think what you think too. i think cutting to some becomes like breathing. its an addiction. one time i was explaining the way i felt abouyt cutting to one of my friends who didnt understand and i told her about when i tried to stop and i thought about cutting my mouth would water and i'd want it so bad and she said to me "my god tabitha. its like fucking herion to you, isnt it?" and i guess thats what it is. cutting is an addiction. it'll never go away for some but for others, they are stong enough to overcome it." Think about it you guys,I can "stop" cutting, but how long will it last? Eventually I'll start again. So for those of you that want me to stop, think about it you guys.. I "Stopped" being aneroxic but then for a lil bit started it up again. Just like I "Stopped" cutting but started it up again.. I'm sorry if I'm a disappointment to you all ((including you nick..)) but this is me, this is who i am, if you dont like it? Fukk you. I don't plan to change.