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So yeah, no posting for me in a long while i suppose... oh well. Yeah pretty much I've had nothing interesting to say at all. Flying's been going well i suppose, did my first cross country tuesday, supposed to do a night one thursday night (today actually) but yeah the weather looks shtty. Yes and great, the space bar on this stupid thing decided it wants to die.... uggghhhh. So yeah, been doing some thinking lately, i've just noticed I haven't had a girlfriend since I was 19.... yeah I'm 21 now. Since then I believe I can still count the number of times I've been kissed on one hand (3), still have no idea how to even approach anybody... I'm 21 and I still cannot handle girls, how pathetic. Despite more resolutions than I can count to be more outgoing, less consciencious, etc, i still have yet to do anything. There is no fucking point to my life right now, all i do is work, eat, and sleep.
But yeah, anyway, i miss that so much. I suppose I'd be in a position to notice these things more than others, but there are so many great, simple perks to having a partner in your life. Ever notice how if you walk into a room and your b/g/f is in that room how much they just smile for no reason other than that you are there? Yeah i miss that. Yeah that look of complete comfort when i girl uses your shoulder or chest as a headrest, yeah i miss that. The way a girl can make you feel like the greatest thing to walk the earth simply by looking into your eyes, the way as small a touch as a hand on your back or shoulder can make you feel completely secure, the way a kiss hello or goodbye can leave me with a smile for hours, yeah i miss those too. I would do anything to get those back. Tried it a few times aready, lost everything, seems to be somebody's plan for me. Whatever, i've become almost numb to it. Well, I guess this has been depressing enough to add more, so i'll quit here. G'night everyone.
But yeah, anyway, i miss that so much. I suppose I'd be in a position to notice these things more than others, but there are so many great, simple perks to having a partner in your life. Ever notice how if you walk into a room and your b/g/f is in that room how much they just smile for no reason other than that you are there? Yeah i miss that. Yeah that look of complete comfort when i girl uses your shoulder or chest as a headrest, yeah i miss that. The way a girl can make you feel like the greatest thing to walk the earth simply by looking into your eyes, the way as small a touch as a hand on your back or shoulder can make you feel completely secure, the way a kiss hello or goodbye can leave me with a smile for hours, yeah i miss those too. I would do anything to get those back. Tried it a few times aready, lost everything, seems to be somebody's plan for me. Whatever, i've become almost numb to it. Well, I guess this has been depressing enough to add more, so i'll quit here. G'night everyone.