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Im sick.
and i feel like shit inside.
Im sucha a bitch sometimes,Its not my fault.Its my defense.
Im sitll trying to learn how to trust people but im only getting reasons not to.People are trying to force/rush me into trusting them again.but for me..its 15 years of walls i've put up and painted.They were ferm and strong and new ones went up everyear.I cant just think to myself...i'll trust people..Its the scariest thing i've ever had to do in like...screw owls and spiders this is my real fear.
and i feel like shit inside.
Im sucha a bitch sometimes,Its not my fault.Its my defense.
Im sitll trying to learn how to trust people but im only getting reasons not to.People are trying to force/rush me into trusting them again.but for me..its 15 years of walls i've put up and painted.They were ferm and strong and new ones went up everyear.I cant just think to myself...i'll trust people..Its the scariest thing i've ever had to do in like...screw owls and spiders this is my real fear.