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"Hey Will, hows it goin'?"
"Well, I've apparantly gotten to the point where, after years of just swallowing my feelings, I'm finally emotionally stunted enough that anything I happen to feel manifests itself as a twitch in my left eye!"
"Oh, ok...Um.
Alright."
Yeah, so I went out on a date, and it was nice, and it doesn't seem like she's fucked up like the people I usually go for. Then I said something stupid, and hopefully I didn't already ruin it.
That'd be setting a new record.
Also, I drank an entire bottle of rum, and was talking to this really cute girl, equally wasted, who kept flirting with me in cliched ways that you only see in the movies, and one would think that would drive me up a wall, but I ate up every word she threw my way. She was holding my hand, telling me I was funny, and talking about how she hoped I'd come to the next party that was happening, so she could see me again, and it was unbelievable. I've never been flirted with in a nice way like that. I usually get the social awkward weirdo who stares at me for too long, and has no confidence. This girl was confident, and it was nice for a change.
I'm just getting a bit confused. And don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining, I'm just confused. I don't know whether or not I want a relationship with anybody ever, let alone whether or not I'm capable of having one. There are times when I think to myself "fuck it. Don't need one, I'm alright." But then there are times like this:
I was watching Scrubs, and one of the main characters, Turk, found out that he had type two diabetes. He tried to hide it from his girlfriend, but she already knew. When he finally broke and told her, she acted fake-surprised, and then pulled out a little box and said, "Here, I call this Turk's Diabetes Box." It had a bunch of sugar-free recipes and shit in it, and he was just looking at her amazed, and then they kissed eachother, and it was fucking rad. I don't think I've ever had a girl who liked me and did something nice for me. I'm not expecting anybody to really go out of their way to be super nice, or to make me a diabetes box, because that'd be weird...I don't have diabetes, but fuck, I don't think I've ever kissed a girl because it wasn't possible not to. He kissed her because that was a badass display of feeling, and shit! I want that.
Grrrroooowwwwllll.
Yep, yep, yep.
Bup, ba dup, ba dup...
So how are you?
"Well, I've apparantly gotten to the point where, after years of just swallowing my feelings, I'm finally emotionally stunted enough that anything I happen to feel manifests itself as a twitch in my left eye!"
"Oh, ok...Um.
Alright."
Yeah, so I went out on a date, and it was nice, and it doesn't seem like she's fucked up like the people I usually go for. Then I said something stupid, and hopefully I didn't already ruin it.
That'd be setting a new record.
Also, I drank an entire bottle of rum, and was talking to this really cute girl, equally wasted, who kept flirting with me in cliched ways that you only see in the movies, and one would think that would drive me up a wall, but I ate up every word she threw my way. She was holding my hand, telling me I was funny, and talking about how she hoped I'd come to the next party that was happening, so she could see me again, and it was unbelievable. I've never been flirted with in a nice way like that. I usually get the social awkward weirdo who stares at me for too long, and has no confidence. This girl was confident, and it was nice for a change.
I'm just getting a bit confused. And don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining, I'm just confused. I don't know whether or not I want a relationship with anybody ever, let alone whether or not I'm capable of having one. There are times when I think to myself "fuck it. Don't need one, I'm alright." But then there are times like this:
I was watching Scrubs, and one of the main characters, Turk, found out that he had type two diabetes. He tried to hide it from his girlfriend, but she already knew. When he finally broke and told her, she acted fake-surprised, and then pulled out a little box and said, "Here, I call this Turk's Diabetes Box." It had a bunch of sugar-free recipes and shit in it, and he was just looking at her amazed, and then they kissed eachother, and it was fucking rad. I don't think I've ever had a girl who liked me and did something nice for me. I'm not expecting anybody to really go out of their way to be super nice, or to make me a diabetes box, because that'd be weird...I don't have diabetes, but fuck, I don't think I've ever kissed a girl because it wasn't possible not to. He kissed her because that was a badass display of feeling, and shit! I want that.
Grrrroooowwwwllll.
Yep, yep, yep.
Bup, ba dup, ba dup...
So how are you?