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Sometimes...well I guess it's more like a lot of the time I feel so damn lonely. I can be around a crowd of people and still feel it. I feel like I am digressing but I don't want to give up what I have and I don't want to force any one to change. Sometimes the decisions that are hard to make are the best ones. I have no idea what the hell I am talking about. I hate feeling like this. I hate being around people who are so angry all the time, it makes me feel bad about myself. I wish I didn't think everything had to be about me. I wish everyone I knew didn't want to drop out of school. I wish I could. I wish I could sleep better, like I could sleep the way I do after I drink one or two beers without having to drink one or two beers. I wish I was a better friend, I wish I had better friends. I wish I could be better friends with all the cool people I have met along the way but haven't really had the time or made the time to get to know better. Sometimes I wish I wasn't graduating in December. What if I just stay around and catch up on all the things I missed out on, if only life worked that way. If only alcohol tasted better....