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You know, I really don't have anything to write about, so I think that I will just ramble. I went out with Michelle last night. We went to Oasis, so of course there was drinking. It's really strange to hangout with her, because it's like we're still together. It still seems right to hold her hand, or touch her arm when we're speaking, but we aren't together so it's not really okay to be that way. It's not as though it's wrong or anything, it just seems like we shouldn't be that comfortable with each other still. It's especially weird for me because I'm not a very touchy kind of person. I like to have my own space and no one is allowed in it. With Michelle, though, it seems okay. I am a little worried that I might just be feeling all these things because I'm getting ready to leave. And then I worry that if we do try to get back together that she'll be stuck waiting for me. Four years is a long time. I wouldn't want to have to wait four years just to be able to see my partner daily, and I don't want to ever ask any one to do that for me. It's not fair. Then again, there is still that part that says having a girl to come home to is how it's supposed to be. I just don't know. Wow, that was kinda ranty. Good to write things out though, isn't it? Get it all out there. Bare your heart and soul for others to examine. This could go on for hours, and pages, so I will simply end it at that.