A Strange Quiet Time
Another 4:00 am post. Up working on the CD project. Hammered out most of the difficult bits. Now it's just a matter of QA, updating the database, and resetting a bunch of paths. I didn't think when I started, while assuring Michelle that I would be able to accomplish the task, that I would be able to gather all the resources I needed to make it work. It's working. That ROCKS.
Now to the quiet part. So, I'm freezing in A's room, working on the coding. Did I mention I was freezing? FREEZING, I tell ya. So anyway, I went into the Temple to stand in front of the furnace register and I did just that, stand, for a long time. I turned a quarter turn every now and then to roast myself evenly, and after standing there, turning from time to time, I had this realization, it's quiet in here. Not the kind of quiet that comes from a still house at 4:00 am. While it was that kind of quiet, it was also something more. It was quiet inside. Nobody but me. It felt empty. But it was also very peaceful. I really don't know what it is like with only Eileen there. But I suppose all the little ones and the older ones are sleeping right now. I'm very clear, while very sleeply, but it's interesting to experience me, Eileen, alone.