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Hello world. Another birthday passed, with no big issues.
Life update: Need surgery, only surgeon nearby that can do it, won't do it because I'm too high risk a patient. :/ I don't want to deal with the other hospital in that city because they just suck (money from their patients...especially the ones that don't qualify for Medicaid and are on fixed incomes...that's a whole other rant though) and I stil blame one of their doctors for the amputation of my toes and I totally want nothing to do with them at all, even if they do have a surgeon that could do this. And basically, what I need done is a bypass on the main artery through my left legs because all the stents that have been placed have failed. So I'm kind of in a limbo regarding that. I also need a heart bypass, but no one will do that until my foot heals and they don't think it will heal up until I have the bypass on my leg done, and they don't want to do the heart bypass unless it's healed because of the risk of infection.
On another front, I have gained several pounds back. In college, when I lived in the dorms and walked to all my classes (It was a small community college, and my furthest class from the dorm was at the top of a hill.). I weighed about 220 then. I felt good about myself, and I could fit into size 22W jeans. I'm now back upto my high school weight of hovering right around 300. Even worse? Apperently sizing has changed on the brand of panties I used to always buy. In high school, I always wore the same brand, same style, and I could wear a size 10. I bought a pack of those, since I had been to a point I could wear size 9, and I so I bought them...and they are frickin' too damn tight. I haven't expanded out through my hips and belly that much (but my jeans are back to a 26W :/ If they have lycra or spandex or whatever stretchy stuff woven in with them, 24W if I'm lucky.)
Why can't women's clothes just be sized like men's, by the actual measurements. Also, I remember when plus sized shirts a 3XL was a 24/26W not 22/24. Now to ge a 26W I have get a fucking 4X!! This is why I hate clothes, or at least the sizing on women's. I also hate when stores mix plus size and normal sizes. We have to rifle through all the shit we can't wear but would love to if it was only available in our size!
I see a bunch of clothes at work I would love to have, if they were in my size. Of course they're not, they're for normal sized people, not those of us that have given up on our weight struggles and have just accepted that we can't wear fashionable, cute, sassy t-shiirts with snarky sayings on them because we have curves. Right now, my current philosphy on clothes is I'm buying men's t-shirts, and sweats, and the jeans are for work only (yay for working on a shirt where I can!).
One day I would like to have not pay an extra dollar or two because I need a bit of extra fabric. Besides, if I was running a clothing shop, I'd be an asshole and start charging extra at the XL size. Seriously, it's extra large, therefore they had to use extra fabric, and the consumer should have to pay for bigger than a large. I mean, us obese people are already paying this penalty, why shouldn't people that wear any size starting with X's not have to as well?
LIke I said, I'm an asshole.
Life update: Need surgery, only surgeon nearby that can do it, won't do it because I'm too high risk a patient. :/ I don't want to deal with the other hospital in that city because they just suck (money from their patients...especially the ones that don't qualify for Medicaid and are on fixed incomes...that's a whole other rant though) and I stil blame one of their doctors for the amputation of my toes and I totally want nothing to do with them at all, even if they do have a surgeon that could do this. And basically, what I need done is a bypass on the main artery through my left legs because all the stents that have been placed have failed. So I'm kind of in a limbo regarding that. I also need a heart bypass, but no one will do that until my foot heals and they don't think it will heal up until I have the bypass on my leg done, and they don't want to do the heart bypass unless it's healed because of the risk of infection.
On another front, I have gained several pounds back. In college, when I lived in the dorms and walked to all my classes (It was a small community college, and my furthest class from the dorm was at the top of a hill.). I weighed about 220 then. I felt good about myself, and I could fit into size 22W jeans. I'm now back upto my high school weight of hovering right around 300. Even worse? Apperently sizing has changed on the brand of panties I used to always buy. In high school, I always wore the same brand, same style, and I could wear a size 10. I bought a pack of those, since I had been to a point I could wear size 9, and I so I bought them...and they are frickin' too damn tight. I haven't expanded out through my hips and belly that much (but my jeans are back to a 26W :/ If they have lycra or spandex or whatever stretchy stuff woven in with them, 24W if I'm lucky.)
Why can't women's clothes just be sized like men's, by the actual measurements. Also, I remember when plus sized shirts a 3XL was a 24/26W not 22/24. Now to ge a 26W I have get a fucking 4X!! This is why I hate clothes, or at least the sizing on women's. I also hate when stores mix plus size and normal sizes. We have to rifle through all the shit we can't wear but would love to if it was only available in our size!
I see a bunch of clothes at work I would love to have, if they were in my size. Of course they're not, they're for normal sized people, not those of us that have given up on our weight struggles and have just accepted that we can't wear fashionable, cute, sassy t-shiirts with snarky sayings on them because we have curves. Right now, my current philosphy on clothes is I'm buying men's t-shirts, and sweats, and the jeans are for work only (yay for working on a shirt where I can!).
One day I would like to have not pay an extra dollar or two because I need a bit of extra fabric. Besides, if I was running a clothing shop, I'd be an asshole and start charging extra at the XL size. Seriously, it's extra large, therefore they had to use extra fabric, and the consumer should have to pay for bigger than a large. I mean, us obese people are already paying this penalty, why shouldn't people that wear any size starting with X's not have to as well?
LIke I said, I'm an asshole.