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My cat is wicked needy...she's sitting there staring at me, wanting me to pet her.
I thought only dogs did that. Them...and my GF...geez.
I'm going through some rough times I think. I think I'm depressed, I don't feel anything, I don't seem to care about general stuff, and I get no satisfaction from anything. That looks like depression right?
Anyway, I've been able to read 2 whole books this weekend!
I also upgraded my tank to a 65 g, I will use the old tank to be a set up for my school.
I'm hoping to find another job, in addition to teaching of course. Just to give me something that I may find a thrill in. Something more to do in my life than just the school. I mean, being a teacher is a lot of work, but I need more. Something that occupies my mind more, not just my body.
I mean... I lesson plan, I teach, I have small conversations with my coworkers. But it's not giving me happiness. I thought it would though. To be able to do for others.
The thing is...in one week, seeing 72 children a day...there are only a few bright spots. I have to fight through behavioral/attitude issues first and foremost, then I have to try and impart an education specific to science when most of the students don't even have a grip on math and english. Not only that...many of the students have education on the back burner. How can I get my children to see the light, when they have so much darkness to plow through?
Anyway, sometimes it seems like there is no end. I come home at like 4-5pm, then work for 2-3 more hours making sure the next class day, and the day after that is all set up. I have my paperwork to be copied, I graded all assignments, etc.
But...how many assignments do I have to grade, how many students are actually going to show up, how many minutes will I have to spend trying to calm them down so we can even start the DO NOW, what will I do when some of the children continue to defy the behavioral system.
That is not what is to take up the majority of my time.
They have these schools called TEAM academies. To me they seem like places to imprision the students bodies, then condition their minds, THEN teach them the subject.
I don't want that either.
So what if those students score higher on tests, go off to college at a higher percent.
Those things are supposed to be options right?
If you make a CHOICE to do those things, then to me, the outcome is more valuable than being brainwashed.
I guess a lot of things are bothering me.
I thought only dogs did that. Them...and my GF...geez.
I'm going through some rough times I think. I think I'm depressed, I don't feel anything, I don't seem to care about general stuff, and I get no satisfaction from anything. That looks like depression right?
Anyway, I've been able to read 2 whole books this weekend!
I also upgraded my tank to a 65 g, I will use the old tank to be a set up for my school.
I'm hoping to find another job, in addition to teaching of course. Just to give me something that I may find a thrill in. Something more to do in my life than just the school. I mean, being a teacher is a lot of work, but I need more. Something that occupies my mind more, not just my body.
I mean... I lesson plan, I teach, I have small conversations with my coworkers. But it's not giving me happiness. I thought it would though. To be able to do for others.
The thing is...in one week, seeing 72 children a day...there are only a few bright spots. I have to fight through behavioral/attitude issues first and foremost, then I have to try and impart an education specific to science when most of the students don't even have a grip on math and english. Not only that...many of the students have education on the back burner. How can I get my children to see the light, when they have so much darkness to plow through?
Anyway, sometimes it seems like there is no end. I come home at like 4-5pm, then work for 2-3 more hours making sure the next class day, and the day after that is all set up. I have my paperwork to be copied, I graded all assignments, etc.
But...how many assignments do I have to grade, how many students are actually going to show up, how many minutes will I have to spend trying to calm them down so we can even start the DO NOW, what will I do when some of the children continue to defy the behavioral system.
That is not what is to take up the majority of my time.
They have these schools called TEAM academies. To me they seem like places to imprision the students bodies, then condition their minds, THEN teach them the subject.
I don't want that either.
So what if those students score higher on tests, go off to college at a higher percent.
Those things are supposed to be options right?
If you make a CHOICE to do those things, then to me, the outcome is more valuable than being brainwashed.
I guess a lot of things are bothering me.