long overdue gratitude post!

[willows090]

so yeah...i've been slacking with this whole "what are you grateful for today?" thing, but things have been chaotic. This week has been an interesting one to say the least. As you all know my mom had to put down our cat on monday, so that made monday an emotional day. my mom should be driving into Florida today where she will set up camp for the next year. it's funny, because i consider myself to be a pretty independent person when it comes to my family. none of my extended family lives nearby, and i've gotten used to not being close to my mom or dad distance-wise, with living in virginia and now boston...so why is it so hard for me, now, that my mom has moved to florida? it's not like i'm never going to see her again, and in a sense it's almost better cause she'll be off doing new things and can give me a little bit more freedom...i don't know, i think i'm feeling a bit abandoned if you can imagine that. i don't think it would be so hard if it wasn't for thanksgiving right around the corner. granted, my thanksgivings are never big deals...it's always dinner with mom one night, then dinner with dad the next, and of course my wonderful friends thanksgiving the night before the big holiday. however, this year things are different...with mom gone, i def won't be doing dinner or anything of the like with her. and now that dad has a girlfriend, i'm put on teh backburner again, so i can go over there but it'll just be an awkward evening of being the third wheel and getting to know another girlfriend that may or may not be around in another year. it's hard to see friends around me with these large families that can't wait for thanksgiving becuase everyone gets together and it's this big homecoming and even if their family is off the walls, it's an entertaining evening. that's the one thing that sucks about being an only child...my holidays are never big joyous events. blah. damnit, now i'm in self-pity mode again! i'm trying to avoid it, but i can't help it...i feel like this is my only outlet for this right now because the last thing i want to do is burden anyone else with my blah mood...(although i guess the only difference here is that i'm writing it and not speaking it...)



* i changed my hair, again, and i love it so much! i think it's a lot better than what it was...not so dark! plus i had the hairdresser give it a new cut so it's still long, but now i have all cool funky layers and what not! yay for not looking like i'm 12!

* karen's lady's night in is tomorrow night! i can't wait...i feel a need for a good slumber party where i can just laugh and be with friends....not think about sad things

* i got to sleep in this morning with scott...there's something to be said for not having to wake up at the crack ass of dawn and leave the nice warm bed for the long ass ride back to the bean.

* my car hit 150,000 miles today! and she's still running great! i <3 betsy!

* my face is starting to clear up! wOOt! soon i won't have all this stupid acne everywhere...it's killin' my groove!

* i got a planner...i'm a stationary dork and i get giddy about highlighting seemingly insignificant dates in a planner so i can feel all organized

* greg told me tim burton might be doing an alice in wonderland movie...*orgasm*

...that's all i've got for now!