a conclusion

[willows090]

so...needless to say it's been a whirlwind of a week. between working constantly and then finding out i am no longer going to massage therapy school in the fall, i've been in quite the emotional state. since finding out, i've been doing some thinking as to why this has happened, and what this means for me. i've always been a firm believer that things happen for a reason...and i've been trying to figure out what that reason is. i've come to the conclusion, that at this point in my life, school is not for me. what i really want, and what i've wanted since moving up here, is to begin a professional dance career. i haven't spent the past 18 years, 20something thousand dollars, and a diploma on nothing. in the past year, i've been quite apathetic in getting it all started. something always got in the way, and i never quite took the action in making dance a priority. since school has now become non-existent, i feel it is the kick in the butt i need. it's time to become serious about this, and now i have been given the opportunity to really pursue it. i've been able to change my schedule at work due to the school schedule, and now i'm able to keep it leaving my afternoons and evenings open as the sky. my rent and expenses are dropping tremendously since i'm moving, leaving me with extra money to put towards classes. i feel as though everything has kind of clicked into place, and is allowing me to really dive into the boston dance scene. currently, it really isn't that big, but i'd like to become more involved, and hopefully a part of making it into a bigger presence in this small but artsy city. i have this chance to really make something of myself, and to feel as though i'm more than just an administrative assistant...that i have purpose in this world. to waste it is just ridiculous, and i'm choosing not to let it fall to the wayside anymore.

huzzah for misfortune and exhaustion! without either i wouldn't be as excited and anxious to get started with an actual dance career!