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My heart is pounding so hard right now.
I got all my application materials in the mail, over-nighted to the admissions office and I pray that I really did have everything in order. I'm so nervous and relieved and anxious and now I get to wait two months and then....
my life might drastically change.
I'm so glad to be moving on, and going forward and maybe finally feeling like a grown-up. I'm terrified about leaving my friends and family here, especially since it might be more long-term. I keep drawing on my experience in Scotland as reassurances to myself - YES I can adapt to drastic change YES I can survive in an unknown environment YES I can find a job YES I can find a place to live YES I can make new friends
And blessings on Dan, who doesn't have any of those kind of reassurances to say for himself and is still planning on moving with me, and has faith in me...
I'm just going to collapse for the rest of the day in a wibbly pile of anxious relief (awesome oxymoron) and watch Xena: Warrior Princess until I'm numb.
I got all my application materials in the mail, over-nighted to the admissions office and I pray that I really did have everything in order. I'm so nervous and relieved and anxious and now I get to wait two months and then....
my life might drastically change.
I'm so glad to be moving on, and going forward and maybe finally feeling like a grown-up. I'm terrified about leaving my friends and family here, especially since it might be more long-term. I keep drawing on my experience in Scotland as reassurances to myself - YES I can adapt to drastic change YES I can survive in an unknown environment YES I can find a job YES I can find a place to live YES I can make new friends
And blessings on Dan, who doesn't have any of those kind of reassurances to say for himself and is still planning on moving with me, and has faith in me...
I'm just going to collapse for the rest of the day in a wibbly pile of anxious relief (awesome oxymoron) and watch Xena: Warrior Princess until I'm numb.