*Sigh*
So I'm doing this work camp thing in June and I'm so excited!!!! Its a mission trip where the youth group goes to Florence, Colorado and we repair homes for the elderly and disabled and such. There is going to be 400 or so people there all staying in a high school and working all over Florence. I'm super excited and happy to be going!
I'll tell you what though, it cost a pretty penny to get going, airfare and all that sort, but oddly enough, I'm really excited.
I sorta realized how fragile I am today though. VERY! We were driving in the truck the other night, deciding whether to suprise people that I was going or to tell them, and it was decided we'd tell people so I could get in on the pre-trip bonding. I was super psyched... it was gonna be this big group driving all over taking pictures all over Fairbanks together. So we're in the middle of the living room a few days later and he starts making phone calls. The first person he calls he starts talking about it and making plans. Specifically for a time I cant make it. The ENTIRE TIME... so i put a little note in front of him. He doesnt say "oh wait... can we do it later?" or nothing... just goes right on making them. Hes the one that said I needed to be in on this bonding. Then 5-8 minutes later when the phone call is over its just "Oh I totally forgot" not an, "I'm sorry" or "thats the only time we can do it" nothing like that... then continued to call other people. There was no input either.... it was just him picking at time. I felt really slighted... I still feel kinda slighted. could a time have been picked when I didnt have to work? I really wanted to go.
I prolly shouldnt have been insulted...there was a reason for picking that time... but it still really stung. not sure why. so I left... I wanted to cry when I left. I dont know why that was... thats why I left. If I stuck around while he called the rest of the group right there in front of me I would cry. What is making me so sensative lately? Sheesh?
I'll tell you what though, it cost a pretty penny to get going, airfare and all that sort, but oddly enough, I'm really excited.
I sorta realized how fragile I am today though. VERY! We were driving in the truck the other night, deciding whether to suprise people that I was going or to tell them, and it was decided we'd tell people so I could get in on the pre-trip bonding. I was super psyched... it was gonna be this big group driving all over taking pictures all over Fairbanks together. So we're in the middle of the living room a few days later and he starts making phone calls. The first person he calls he starts talking about it and making plans. Specifically for a time I cant make it. The ENTIRE TIME... so i put a little note in front of him. He doesnt say "oh wait... can we do it later?" or nothing... just goes right on making them. Hes the one that said I needed to be in on this bonding. Then 5-8 minutes later when the phone call is over its just "Oh I totally forgot" not an, "I'm sorry" or "thats the only time we can do it" nothing like that... then continued to call other people. There was no input either.... it was just him picking at time. I felt really slighted... I still feel kinda slighted. could a time have been picked when I didnt have to work? I really wanted to go.
I prolly shouldnt have been insulted...there was a reason for picking that time... but it still really stung. not sure why. so I left... I wanted to cry when I left. I dont know why that was... thats why I left. If I stuck around while he called the rest of the group right there in front of me I would cry. What is making me so sensative lately? Sheesh?