Growing Point?
I think I'm reaching a growing point... I think... Maybe... I'm starting to doubt what I want for eternity. Its still what I want, no matter how hard I try and not want it, Its still something I want. Not like I really have any help, because what I want has sort of a way of taunting me, making me feel like I want it even more. But every once and a while this little thought slips in and says... "You sure?" and of course the rest of me... like my heart and body SCREAM "YES!" but I have those little doubts. Until I get close to what I want. Then there isn't a doubt in the world. But I think I'm growing... bit by bit.... so if I get what I want great... if not I think I'll be ok. ( as long as I don't have any more emotional break downs in front of my mother. )