Let's try this again kids...

[willow_the_wisp]

Ok I'm going to try to write this entry for the second time since the first time I was kicked off the internet because my computer hates me. Just another example of how today was a shitty day. I started the day in detention, which was the MOST boring thing I have ever had to endure. All because my freaky theology teacher is a Nazi. Then I got to go to yearbook class where my teacher singled me out and told me I deserved an F because my spreads are not completed even though he told me on Tuesday they weren't good enough and he wanted my to redo them by today, which is impossible if you have ever worked with EliteVision. I don't mind criticism, but not when you are flat out telling me I suck when I work my ass off in that class and I have written more newspaper articles than most people combined in that class. So he hassled me until I cried and I had to salvage some semblance of dignity, and then turned around and gave the girl behind me an A without even checking her work. So the day went downhill from there and I had a moment of rage and I ripped up my drawing for art class. I almost didn't make it to LYG either. The meeting was fun until everything just hit me all at once and I spent most of the time int he bathroom trying to keep my emotions in check and shake off that feeling of hideousness and worthlessness. Then comes the question to which there is no answer: What the hell did I do to deserve this? Why can't I be happy and normal like everyone else and not be so consumed by feeling lonely all the time and so damn self-conscious and worrying if people like me? Shevonda your meeting was great and super! I apologize for missing a lot of it. Brandon, do not fear, we won't let them keep you in jail for long! Lance, I love you so much and thank you so much for everything. You are my baby and I love you. And I have not forgotten my promise about tonight! Special thanks to Raoul for trying to find us a room and just for being a sweetie, and Nick for trying to help us in the bathroom. I really appreciate it. And thanks to Kitty and Scarlett as well. A special note to Michael: I love you and value your friendship so much and this whole thing was just a big miscommunication and I'm sorry. I hope we are ok.
Any the hoo, I am now at home and I should really be in bed because I am about to collapse. I have no clear recollection about what I just typed so I hope this entry makes sense. Sorry it's depressing, I'll be more cheerful tomorrow (hopefully). So once I have finished conversing with my darling bubbie Rachel, I am off to bed. Goodnight and I will talk to everyone later! I love you all!
<3 Red <3