Content, worried, and also disappointed.
There seems to be a plethora (good word, eh?) of emotions going on within me right now.
I am content. I have a week until school starts. I will be returning to the familiar, yes.
I just finished Shakespeare Camp yesterday and can still feel everyone's love hovering around me. It's warm, and I enjoy it.
The people around me seem to be happy, for the most part, and that makes me giddy.
But I'm worried. Because I'm going back to school and therefore embarking upon the entirely new and confusing journey of seniordom and college applications. I won't go to Shakespeare Camp next year, as it has gone quite downhill, and it would never be the same. I'm leaving the people that have supported me for four years, and I'm afraid that I might not see them again. I'm not particularly good at keeping in touch.
The worries that I have make me disappointed. It's rather tragic.
And plus, the girl I liked has a thing for someone else. The girl I liked last year screwed around with me again this year and then while we were still in bed proceeded to tell me about how in love she is with her ex boyfriend.
So that's how that goes.
I guess I could post more, but I'm not really in the mood.
Though, I will say that Shakespeare Camp rocked. I was Pisanio (aka pissy). Just a servant guy. But it was cool.
Oh. One more thing for my happiness.
I was about to end the entry, and then I looked over and saw this marvelous green necklace.
On...probably Weds, I had told "Nedef" that I liked it (he was wearing many necklaces for his costume) and he was like "Yeah, it's one of
frodo_alanna'sfavorites too" (he was borrowing them from her) and I was like "awesomeness".
And then, after the show,
frodo_alanna put it around my neck and I looked at her, perplexed, asking, "what?". She gave me the necklace.
I know she's probably reading this right now (don't deny it ;p ).
I can barely describe how much it meant to me. I was going to start re-crying (if I hadn't done enough of that in the appreciation circle).
And now, it's on my nightstand, looking at me and reminding me that there is happiness in the world. And that people (or at least one person) do care. And it makes my world go round. Darling, you rock my world like no other.
I love you :)
<3
And now I'll end my post.
I am content. I have a week until school starts. I will be returning to the familiar, yes.
I just finished Shakespeare Camp yesterday and can still feel everyone's love hovering around me. It's warm, and I enjoy it.
The people around me seem to be happy, for the most part, and that makes me giddy.
But I'm worried. Because I'm going back to school and therefore embarking upon the entirely new and confusing journey of seniordom and college applications. I won't go to Shakespeare Camp next year, as it has gone quite downhill, and it would never be the same. I'm leaving the people that have supported me for four years, and I'm afraid that I might not see them again. I'm not particularly good at keeping in touch.
The worries that I have make me disappointed. It's rather tragic.
And plus, the girl I liked has a thing for someone else. The girl I liked last year screwed around with me again this year and then while we were still in bed proceeded to tell me about how in love she is with her ex boyfriend.
So that's how that goes.
I guess I could post more, but I'm not really in the mood.
Though, I will say that Shakespeare Camp rocked. I was Pisanio (aka pissy). Just a servant guy. But it was cool.
Oh. One more thing for my happiness.
I was about to end the entry, and then I looked over and saw this marvelous green necklace.
On...probably Weds, I had told "Nedef" that I liked it (he was wearing many necklaces for his costume) and he was like "Yeah, it's one of
frodo_alanna'sfavorites too" (he was borrowing them from her) and I was like "awesomeness".
And then, after the show,
frodo_alanna put it around my neck and I looked at her, perplexed, asking, "what?". She gave me the necklace.
I know she's probably reading this right now (don't deny it ;p ).
I can barely describe how much it meant to me. I was going to start re-crying (if I hadn't done enough of that in the appreciation circle).
And now, it's on my nightstand, looking at me and reminding me that there is happiness in the world. And that people (or at least one person) do care. And it makes my world go round. Darling, you rock my world like no other.
I love you :)
<3
And now I'll end my post.