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so, it's freezing in this house. The window in the kitchen is "broke" and keeps falling foward {{the type you can bring forward, like pull down toward you to clean, well the lil latch that keeps it in place is evidently non existent now}} So it's freezing. And I'm p.o'ed about that.
I'm also p.o'ed about a lot of other things. Namely my stepfather. Ok, yes, I still live at home, we all know that. If you wanna REALLY call it that. I've known this house my WHOLE life, but it isn't like I've LIVED HERE my whole life. I moved here almost as in a business deal with/along with my mother. I told her I'd stay in Monroe. I had a good job with GREAT pay. But I let this house get to me, {{I was trying to talk my cousins into buying it so that it'd stay in the family. They of course didn't want to, they didn't want to live in this town}} so when it came right down to it, I knew there was a huge possibility that my grandparents, well, my grandmother since the house was SOLELY in her name, would sell it in a friggin heart beat if they wanted to buy a place in FLA. So, here I am. EXCEPT AFTER the deal was made and done, my mom decided to marry an idiot {{no, really, an idiot}} after knowing him for only a month, and knowing who he was for only 3 months. And, oh, sorry, she married him after a month, she DECIDED to after only like 2 days. And not because she thought he was that amazing or great or good looking, but because she was desperate to get OUT OF the business deal. ... So here I am STUCK living with an extremely idiot man that everyone I know {{Lindsay, Michelle, Karen, Alisa... just to name a FEW} tells me creeps them out and he thinks he's going to make me just leave this house and home. I know what he's doing. Because my mom is in the hospital right now and she's been there since Monday and I hope she's coming home today or tomorrow the latest. But in the meantime, Rick thinks he has the upper hand because he's making me sleep ELSEWHERE while he's home at night. He doesn't want me in the same house. He thinks it "looks weird" and SOME people, as in ministers at my Church, have told me that although it doesn't look weird, because the situation is understandable, but since HE'S the "head of household", if he wants me to leave at night, I have to go. ... So a woman should go sleep out on the street instead of a man. And all because this idiot man is the "head of household" ALTHOUGH that was NEVER EVER EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR DISCUSSED before he bought the damn house. And/or before he married my mother in the first place KNOWING I lived here too. You know what I mean? This was MY HOME. FIRST. And for a mighty long time. I didn't decide to marry the man. I didn't decide that my mother should. I didn't decide that he should move in and buy the house. The house came AS IS. And whoever wants to dispute him being head of household so I should move out onto the street, will be told that straight out. He is NOT my head of household. I am not living in HIS home. Technically this might be "his house" since his name is also on the deed next to my mother's, but HE moved into MY HOME. And he's using this opportunity of my mother not being around to try getting the upper hand with me and demand me leaving. He already said HE'S not leaving "his house". Although he's only here to SLEEP. He comes in at like 9:30 pm and leaves by 5 am. He is the biggest dumbest idiot I've ever known in my life. And it's a damn shit shame that I had TO know him in the first place and that my mom ruined my future home prospects. And Rick has another think coming at him if he thinks he really truly does have the "upper hand". When his daughter was little, her mom would go to work all day, and Rick LOCKED HER IN A ROOM and would stick a CAN OF GREEN BEANS in there with a spoon. This is how ODD and how HARMFUL this man is. I'm not saying he's "violent", but because he's an idiot, it's hard telling WHAT HE MIGHT TRY TO DO. ... And I'm serious, he has something wrong with him. He has a chemical imbalance sooo bad that it's going to continue to destroy not only his life but peoples lives around him which is why NO ONE wants to BE around him. ... But anyway, I've been through worse. This is the first time I've been around someone as mentally unstable as Rick, but at least I'M not the one married to him and at least now I know what to LOOK FOR in whoever it is I want to marry so that I DON'T. It's just bad right now because the weekend is coming up and Rick is probably going to try this thing about how I can't be here all weekend although I have NINE pets to take care of. And no, NO ONE can convince him otherwise. He can't reasonably think, so how COULD someone convince him? There's no convincing involved. There's only FORCING And the only human source that has the power to FORCE something here in this house is my mother. She's the ONLY one that can step in and say no. And trust me, her no goes. Rick is evidently not THAT stupid. He knows my mother will divorce him and they'll be forced to sell this house AND he'll have to give my mom one of his cars. hih. And maybe a divorce WOULD be better, but in the meantime, I want to live in THIS house. Even if I get an apartment, I want it close enough so I can be here ALL THE TIME being a CONSTANT source of irritation to Rick. And the beauty of it is all I have to do is be in the same room. And it's gonna be more than that. It's gonna be me in the same room, watching the same TV, and what's gonna be on? Whatever I want to be on, because I'll always get there first. And he won't tell me to not watch the TV, he'll whine to my mom instead and my mom will tell him he has a TV in his bedroom. Which is MY TV btw. And the TV in the living room, my mom bought. Although Rick's the type to say he bought it although the money came out of my mom's buy out so duh, she bought it. But we have to remember, Rick is RETARDED. And a WISE person would tell him to leave me alone before I start to REALLY make things bad for him.
ok, I didn't intend this to really be all about Rick. So, sorry 'bout that. Rick really is irritating though. It isn't even about him making me leave every night although we have a huge basement that has it's own entrance and bathroom and ALL MY ROOMS. And even a fridge. It's not JUST that. He takes things apart and doesn't put them back together. I know boys do that, but GROWNUP MEN? I thought they LIKED putting things back together? but Rick doesn't know HOW. He took the handles off the bathtub and hasn't put them back on because he DOESN'T KNOW HOW. And it's the whole thing. It's the parts the hold the handles on and everything because if you leave him alone and aren't monitoring him, he'll have everything in a billion pieces like that. You know how if you leave a little kid in a room with an opened can of paint and you come back and there's paint all over EVERYTHING? Well, Rick would do that too. He's like a 5 year old trapped in a 50 year old mans body. That's how I've been describing him. If he gets a scrape on his finger he goes running to my mom with his booboo. Seriously. He's not a MAN. He's an old little boy. And he was kicking at my 3 pound 9 month old chihuahua puppy the other day because he's "been knocked over by dogs before" ... yep. Don't worry, he didn't actually touch the puppy. But he meant it. He kept calling him a "vicious dog" and he wasn't saying it in a teaseful way. He kept telling my mom "That dog's vicious" like she was going to say we have to get rid of him. My mom ignored him because you have to learn to do that with Rick.
Ok so anyway let's talk about some better things, although it might not be AS amusing, but I hope Stephanie really is the one to go bye bye tonight on AI. If not, it's gonna be only FOUR BOYS on tour!!!!!!!!!!!! 'cause trust me, stupid Haily isn't leaving yet and there's no way Gina's actually gonna go. If she does, well, oh well. It should have been Stephanie. I just don't want it to be Phil!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Or Blake or Chris R, or, well any of the guys. Sanjaya can go NEXT week. I want him to stay too. Although he's probably gonna be there 'til the top 5. :/ But as long as I get all my boys tonight, I don't care. And I LIKED Phil's performance btw. I'm not saying keep him although he sucks. The only time I thought he sucked was with that country song. And it was just the WRONG song.
Onto HP news- The last book has over 700 pages. All the merch for the next movie is coming out SOON, as in by the end of this month. HBP should start fimling in September and it looks really good for EVERYONE to return, including Emma. yay! I think I'll go watch Goblet of Fire later today.
... After I go obsess over last night's AI on my dvr. ;)