Whoa , real post.
Ah, I just use this thing to document whatnots, it's a horrible thing to represent my life. I explain this before giving out the URL to anyone, but not to the people who just read this once in a while to catch up.
Don't do that.
Karl, you wrote me? I deleted the entry then noticed the name as it blinked away. I'm guessing it was something deep and thoughtful. I'm sure it would have been great insight, had any of that day mattered past the 4th hour. Despite all that, you haven't talked to me since I last asked you for a hug. Ass.
Dov and I talked things out quite easily.
What you guys don't know is i was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, and had symptoms of it since I was 3 or 5. I told Adam almost immediately, and he agreed that it fit perfectly.
I've been going to a trauma therapist all summer, there's a group starting in November i have to wait for. While all that was going on I was researching for myself since the moment i found out. So all that work on myself is why I come back here, to spot patterns and relate things. I'm not emo, really. I haven't cried much since I started going into the core of everything. Sure, Shane is a good reason.. but even when Dov stopped going out with me (well, we still go out, but just to do the fun stuff involving wine and gourmet foods) and was low enough to just do it online, I didn't cry. I just stayed his friend and still cuddle his arm like a teddybear...sometimes talking to it softly.
Dating again... meh... it's like making a whole new circle of friends then weeding out the ones that bring out the negative stuff. Sorry Aaron. :P But really, I'm more in tune with myself and my own life now, and refuse others the fun of affecting it completely. I just really still want a family through it all.
Okay, so. Let's catch up over matcha.
Decided tech field actually screws me up, working in it sucks all creative life out of me. Since I decided not to go for those jobs and just start designing tattoos and such, I've been able to focus better on myself. Soon fit to run marathons, you'd say. I may feel like apprenticing nearby, or moving to do so properly where available. But be warned, I'm already kinda tired of being told I am like Kat Von D. Please no. *sigh*
I'm filling a new sketchbook with flash mostly, to tote around to shops. I'll also be selling flash online in the ninja you-cant-steal-this-it's-pixelated fashion. Someone else wants to start a webcomic with me, I'll be looking into this. I've been prepped for a webcomic for yeeears. Yes. Excitement in that area! Of course, still doing the usual bread and butter commissions for non-mainstream people. Most of which I don't even feel like showing anyone else. It's just crap, really. I'm honing my own style at least.
Don't do that.
Karl, you wrote me? I deleted the entry then noticed the name as it blinked away. I'm guessing it was something deep and thoughtful. I'm sure it would have been great insight, had any of that day mattered past the 4th hour. Despite all that, you haven't talked to me since I last asked you for a hug. Ass.
Dov and I talked things out quite easily.
What you guys don't know is i was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, and had symptoms of it since I was 3 or 5. I told Adam almost immediately, and he agreed that it fit perfectly.
I've been going to a trauma therapist all summer, there's a group starting in November i have to wait for. While all that was going on I was researching for myself since the moment i found out. So all that work on myself is why I come back here, to spot patterns and relate things. I'm not emo, really. I haven't cried much since I started going into the core of everything. Sure, Shane is a good reason.. but even when Dov stopped going out with me (well, we still go out, but just to do the fun stuff involving wine and gourmet foods) and was low enough to just do it online, I didn't cry. I just stayed his friend and still cuddle his arm like a teddybear...sometimes talking to it softly.
Dating again... meh... it's like making a whole new circle of friends then weeding out the ones that bring out the negative stuff. Sorry Aaron. :P But really, I'm more in tune with myself and my own life now, and refuse others the fun of affecting it completely. I just really still want a family through it all.
Okay, so. Let's catch up over matcha.
Decided tech field actually screws me up, working in it sucks all creative life out of me. Since I decided not to go for those jobs and just start designing tattoos and such, I've been able to focus better on myself. Soon fit to run marathons, you'd say. I may feel like apprenticing nearby, or moving to do so properly where available. But be warned, I'm already kinda tired of being told I am like Kat Von D. Please no. *sigh*
I'm filling a new sketchbook with flash mostly, to tote around to shops. I'll also be selling flash online in the ninja you-cant-steal-this-it's-pixelated fashion. Someone else wants to start a webcomic with me, I'll be looking into this. I've been prepped for a webcomic for yeeears. Yes. Excitement in that area! Of course, still doing the usual bread and butter commissions for non-mainstream people. Most of which I don't even feel like showing anyone else. It's just crap, really. I'm honing my own style at least.