I'm not following the rules...
But you knew that. I don't really want to interview anyone, but here is my interview courtesy of peacjen
1. We all know that you enjoy giving oral but you mention several times your dislike of receiving oral. Why don't you like it and describe the situation that turned you off to this?
2. Here is the situation: Detroit and Hami have finally gotten their head on straight and both want to be in a relationship with you. No games and no doubts. Who would you choose and why?
3. You thought seriously about being an actress before. What are your future plans concerning this? If none, why not?
4. You and one of your family members are not on good standing right now. Do you feel they really do love you? How do you feel now toward them?
5. We knew each other a pretty long time. What is one thing that I still don't know and/or understand about you?
Only if you wanna answer…
6. There has been a war between you and the universe since I met you. The universe decides that it will give you a break but only if you can convince otherwise. What would you say?
1. We all know that you enjoy giving oral but you mention several times your dislike of receiving oral. Why don't you like it and describe the situation that turned you off to this?
It’s not that I dislike it; I can just go without it. The question isn’t ‘what turned me off’; the question should be ‘why doesn’t it turn me on’? As much as I like to be petted, I’ve always been a penis woman. I prefer vaginal stimulation over clitoral. I just never really got into it. Don’t get me wrong, men have tried. Some sort of effort to ‘make me’ like it or so they can be the one to make me like; something about it ‘never being done right’, whatever.
I can say this much; that statement is no longer true. ‘Hami’, as you call him, forced me to let him try. The whole time he was doing it, I was fighting, kicking, and screaming, trying to get him to stop. But he held me down and put some sort of death grip on my thighs. I could not escape. Most fun I’d had in a while. A long hour passed and I do believe he gave me my first clitoral orgasm; perhaps my first orgasm period. I have never felt anything like that and haven’t since.
Now that I’ve had it ‘done right’, I still have no desire for it. It just felt weird. My body was reacting and I had no control over anything. Legs jerking, my neck snapped back, hands forming gang signs; weird.
I had no desire for it until 51yo forced me to let him try. *see the theme here* Let me just say, 51 years is a lot of experience. That was another long hour, all previous results were the same and I had my second orgasm. However, afterwards, I still have no desire for it. I think the main thing is the uncontrollable reaction. Me…no…likey.
My desire has grown for it as of late, but I’m not sure if this is because I actually want it or if I just want sex. I’m gonna say the latter. Hesh want some sex!
2. Here is the situation: Detroit and Hami have finally gotten their head on straight and both want to be in a relationship with you. No games and no doubts. Who would you choose and why?
This is a trick question. First I must understand your question. Do you mean today or some time in the future? Since you have not specified, that leaves it up to me to guess. I told you, you would regret this. If my answer to question 1 wasn’t enough to do it, this should put you over the top.
Assuming today and the fact that I am in heat is not a factor, then I chose Detroit; no question. My lure to ‘Hami’ has mainly been sexual and me wanting to ‘be with him’ has solely been to see if it would work out. We were going around the topic for 10ys. After every gf he comes to me, sometimes during. After every bf I go to him. Logic dictated that their must be more to us than just sex; why else do we keep returning. Plus I figured that if we did date it would finally settle the matter between; no what ifs. If it worked out, great, if not, then at least we tried and now we can move on and the dance can finally be done. But my logic fell on deaf ears or should I say stooooooooopid ears.
I don’t actually think it would work out; I just wanted that chapter to finally end. It seemed like our story was going on forever. So as a result, instead of ending our story on friendly terms, we don’t speak. I loved him, still do, but he better not contact me. He can admit the sex was good, but not that our ‘relationship’ was purely sexual. I don’t have time for his bullshit anymore. Don’t pretend we’re friends when all you call for is sex.
I was fine with it being a purely sexual relationship. He didn’t want to admit that’s what it was. Thus the confusion and crossed signals. He kept saying it was ‘something more’, but he doesn’t want anything more. So I gave it one last try, he refused me, I moved on; haven’t heard from him since.
The sex was good, but that’s all it was.
Assuming future(distant) and the fact that I am not in heat, then I chose neither. Detroit is slowly becoming like the ‘Hami’ situation only with out the happy benefit of sex; which is why I keep making the ‘in heat’ comment. So if he doesn’t ‘get his head on straight’ until the distant future, I will have moved on by then; I hope.
I do like him. I like him a lot. It scares me how much I like him. He has come closer than anyone to seeing the real me and has actually seen parts and not run off screaming into the night. I talk to him about things I talk to no one; I express things I would normally keep to myself. He stimulates parts of me I didn’t know needed stimulation. That being sad, he does not know everything. I keep a part of me closed off for fear of the ‘Hami’ situation. I don’t know if keeping part of me closed off is causing the situation or the situation is keeping me closed off. Whatever it is, this can only end in one of two outcomes.
Just like ‘Hami’, I can not be friends with someone I want to be with. The whole friendship would be a lie; me trying to get something from the other. Why waste my time?
I kinda rambled, so to answer your question: Today - Detroit; Future - Neither. I hope that clears it up for you.
3. You thought seriously about being an actress before. What are your future plans concerning this? If none, why not?
...unless there is a miracle, none. We all know I want to, but so much time has passed my fears have built this wall that would put the Great Wall to shame, that forever prevents me from walking down that path again. I no longer have the courage I had in my youth. Listen to me talking like I’m 80.
Plus I don’t like the idea of being perpetually unemployed; living from job to job. ‘How is that any different from now?’ Good question! It’s not, but right now I can delude myself into think that is. Plus certain members of my family need ‘help’ at various points throughout the year. The guardians are unwilling to put aside their selfishness to make provisions for just such an incident or they are simply unable. The children are spoiled and unwilling to change thus ensuring that such incidents continue happen. That leaves me. It seems someone always needs help. I can not count the number of times I have said ‘fuck it’ and decided to pursue my dream. Then someone has an ‘emergency’ or an ‘incident’ that reminds me why I don’t.
If I can ever overcome my own personal demons, regain the courage of my youth, and my family and friends could sustain themselves, I would be outta here so fast, the only reason you’d know I was gone is by the cloud of dust you were choking on.
4. You and one of your family members are not on good standing right now. Do you feel they really do love you? How do you feel now toward them?
No. Nothing.
5. We’ve known each other a pretty long time. What is one thing that I still don't know and/or understand about you?
Everything! What drives me, what motivates me, what holds me back…Who I am as person.
Unfortunately, I keep the real me under tight lock and key. Not many people have seen the real me. My own family hasn’t seen the real me.
You know how I think, that just comes from being around me for years and actually I think like you expect me to think, which is why you can guess. You know my likes and dislikes on the surface. I don’t really let anyone go deeper than that.
I have the personality that likes harmony. You know that. So my personality changes to meet whomever I am hanging out with; the mood I’m feeling. I try to keep everyone happy. So if you expect it of me, I usually provide.
Every now and then I try to test the waters and let a little me peek through, but it is so interspersed between the persona I have built up, it’s hard. It’s scary, but the false me has become harder and harder to distinguish between the real me.
So to answer your question; what is one thing that I still don't know and/or understand about you? - ME
Only if you wanna answer…
6. There has been a war between you and the universe since I met you. The universe decides that it will give you a break but only if you can convince otherwise. What would you say?
Nothing. The universe would only make such a deal at severe cost to me. I already pay everyday. For the universe to make such a deal, giving me a break equals total surrender on my part or death. I will not/can not give unconditional surrender and I ask for death almost everyday. My pride and my curious nature prevent me from surrendering and you know how much I wanna go home. So the universe will grant me a break, but only on my deathbed. When no more deals can be made, when it’s too late; and of course, at that moment, I will not know it’s my deathbed. I will try to make a deal or finally surrender, thus cow towing to the universe, giving it exactly what is wants when my end is inevitable and in no way alterable; all the while oblivious to the fact. Bastard!
I hope you are happy. I h8 u and may you rue the day you thought of these question like I do having answered them.
1. We all know that you enjoy giving oral but you mention several times your dislike of receiving oral. Why don't you like it and describe the situation that turned you off to this?
2. Here is the situation: Detroit and Hami have finally gotten their head on straight and both want to be in a relationship with you. No games and no doubts. Who would you choose and why?
3. You thought seriously about being an actress before. What are your future plans concerning this? If none, why not?
4. You and one of your family members are not on good standing right now. Do you feel they really do love you? How do you feel now toward them?
5. We knew each other a pretty long time. What is one thing that I still don't know and/or understand about you?
Only if you wanna answer…
6. There has been a war between you and the universe since I met you. The universe decides that it will give you a break but only if you can convince otherwise. What would you say?
1. We all know that you enjoy giving oral but you mention several times your dislike of receiving oral. Why don't you like it and describe the situation that turned you off to this?
It’s not that I dislike it; I can just go without it. The question isn’t ‘what turned me off’; the question should be ‘why doesn’t it turn me on’? As much as I like to be petted, I’ve always been a penis woman. I prefer vaginal stimulation over clitoral. I just never really got into it. Don’t get me wrong, men have tried. Some sort of effort to ‘make me’ like it or so they can be the one to make me like; something about it ‘never being done right’, whatever.
I can say this much; that statement is no longer true. ‘Hami’, as you call him, forced me to let him try. The whole time he was doing it, I was fighting, kicking, and screaming, trying to get him to stop. But he held me down and put some sort of death grip on my thighs. I could not escape. Most fun I’d had in a while. A long hour passed and I do believe he gave me my first clitoral orgasm; perhaps my first orgasm period. I have never felt anything like that and haven’t since.
Now that I’ve had it ‘done right’, I still have no desire for it. It just felt weird. My body was reacting and I had no control over anything. Legs jerking, my neck snapped back, hands forming gang signs; weird.
I had no desire for it until 51yo forced me to let him try. *see the theme here* Let me just say, 51 years is a lot of experience. That was another long hour, all previous results were the same and I had my second orgasm. However, afterwards, I still have no desire for it. I think the main thing is the uncontrollable reaction. Me…no…likey.
My desire has grown for it as of late, but I’m not sure if this is because I actually want it or if I just want sex. I’m gonna say the latter. Hesh want some sex!
2. Here is the situation: Detroit and Hami have finally gotten their head on straight and both want to be in a relationship with you. No games and no doubts. Who would you choose and why?
This is a trick question. First I must understand your question. Do you mean today or some time in the future? Since you have not specified, that leaves it up to me to guess. I told you, you would regret this. If my answer to question 1 wasn’t enough to do it, this should put you over the top.
Assuming today and the fact that I am in heat is not a factor, then I chose Detroit; no question. My lure to ‘Hami’ has mainly been sexual and me wanting to ‘be with him’ has solely been to see if it would work out. We were going around the topic for 10ys. After every gf he comes to me, sometimes during. After every bf I go to him. Logic dictated that their must be more to us than just sex; why else do we keep returning. Plus I figured that if we did date it would finally settle the matter between; no what ifs. If it worked out, great, if not, then at least we tried and now we can move on and the dance can finally be done. But my logic fell on deaf ears or should I say stooooooooopid ears.
I don’t actually think it would work out; I just wanted that chapter to finally end. It seemed like our story was going on forever. So as a result, instead of ending our story on friendly terms, we don’t speak. I loved him, still do, but he better not contact me. He can admit the sex was good, but not that our ‘relationship’ was purely sexual. I don’t have time for his bullshit anymore. Don’t pretend we’re friends when all you call for is sex.
I was fine with it being a purely sexual relationship. He didn’t want to admit that’s what it was. Thus the confusion and crossed signals. He kept saying it was ‘something more’, but he doesn’t want anything more. So I gave it one last try, he refused me, I moved on; haven’t heard from him since.
The sex was good, but that’s all it was.
Assuming future(distant) and the fact that I am not in heat, then I chose neither. Detroit is slowly becoming like the ‘Hami’ situation only with out the happy benefit of sex; which is why I keep making the ‘in heat’ comment. So if he doesn’t ‘get his head on straight’ until the distant future, I will have moved on by then; I hope.
I do like him. I like him a lot. It scares me how much I like him. He has come closer than anyone to seeing the real me and has actually seen parts and not run off screaming into the night. I talk to him about things I talk to no one; I express things I would normally keep to myself. He stimulates parts of me I didn’t know needed stimulation. That being sad, he does not know everything. I keep a part of me closed off for fear of the ‘Hami’ situation. I don’t know if keeping part of me closed off is causing the situation or the situation is keeping me closed off. Whatever it is, this can only end in one of two outcomes.
Just like ‘Hami’, I can not be friends with someone I want to be with. The whole friendship would be a lie; me trying to get something from the other. Why waste my time?
I kinda rambled, so to answer your question: Today - Detroit; Future - Neither. I hope that clears it up for you.
3. You thought seriously about being an actress before. What are your future plans concerning this? If none, why not?
...unless there is a miracle, none. We all know I want to, but so much time has passed my fears have built this wall that would put the Great Wall to shame, that forever prevents me from walking down that path again. I no longer have the courage I had in my youth. Listen to me talking like I’m 80.
Plus I don’t like the idea of being perpetually unemployed; living from job to job. ‘How is that any different from now?’ Good question! It’s not, but right now I can delude myself into think that is. Plus certain members of my family need ‘help’ at various points throughout the year. The guardians are unwilling to put aside their selfishness to make provisions for just such an incident or they are simply unable. The children are spoiled and unwilling to change thus ensuring that such incidents continue happen. That leaves me. It seems someone always needs help. I can not count the number of times I have said ‘fuck it’ and decided to pursue my dream. Then someone has an ‘emergency’ or an ‘incident’ that reminds me why I don’t.
If I can ever overcome my own personal demons, regain the courage of my youth, and my family and friends could sustain themselves, I would be outta here so fast, the only reason you’d know I was gone is by the cloud of dust you were choking on.
4. You and one of your family members are not on good standing right now. Do you feel they really do love you? How do you feel now toward them?
No. Nothing.
5. We’ve known each other a pretty long time. What is one thing that I still don't know and/or understand about you?
Everything! What drives me, what motivates me, what holds me back…Who I am as person.
Unfortunately, I keep the real me under tight lock and key. Not many people have seen the real me. My own family hasn’t seen the real me.
You know how I think, that just comes from being around me for years and actually I think like you expect me to think, which is why you can guess. You know my likes and dislikes on the surface. I don’t really let anyone go deeper than that.
I have the personality that likes harmony. You know that. So my personality changes to meet whomever I am hanging out with; the mood I’m feeling. I try to keep everyone happy. So if you expect it of me, I usually provide.
Every now and then I try to test the waters and let a little me peek through, but it is so interspersed between the persona I have built up, it’s hard. It’s scary, but the false me has become harder and harder to distinguish between the real me.
So to answer your question; what is one thing that I still don't know and/or understand about you? - ME
Only if you wanna answer…
6. There has been a war between you and the universe since I met you. The universe decides that it will give you a break but only if you can convince otherwise. What would you say?
Nothing. The universe would only make such a deal at severe cost to me. I already pay everyday. For the universe to make such a deal, giving me a break equals total surrender on my part or death. I will not/can not give unconditional surrender and I ask for death almost everyday. My pride and my curious nature prevent me from surrendering and you know how much I wanna go home. So the universe will grant me a break, but only on my deathbed. When no more deals can be made, when it’s too late; and of course, at that moment, I will not know it’s my deathbed. I will try to make a deal or finally surrender, thus cow towing to the universe, giving it exactly what is wants when my end is inevitable and in no way alterable; all the while oblivious to the fact. Bastard!
I hope you are happy. I h8 u and may you rue the day you thought of these question like I do having answered them.