A dream i had...
I'll type it up and make it purdy later. For now...enjoy...this is me recapping the dream for peacjen
- he is systematically driving me insane; i'm neck deep in caca
peacjen: u know what i feel sorry 4 the boy if u ever r in the same room
me: i had the same thought
I was actually thinking of just telling him that; don't let me see you face to face
I dreamt I was at his house and was explaining how much mental strength it took for me not to be raping him right now...and my strength was fading
how much effort it was for me not to kiss him whenever he leaned into me
and it was driving me insane...literally. I'm looking for a psychologist as a result.
This was the dream...
whenever he came into the room i left
at night when he said come to bed, i went for a walk...
in the snow...
no coat...
in my pajamas...
which were shorts...
cuz he keeps the house so goddamned hot.
he comes looking for me...
can't find me...
cuz i'm walking on the highway
trying to get to chicago...trying to get "home"
in my shorts...
in the snow...
with no coat...
cuz i can't lay in the bed next to him another night and not fuck the dog shit out of him.
So detroit pulls up...i ignore him
he parks and gets out
trys to hand me a coat
i swat it away
my feet are frozen
cuz of course i'm wearing slippers not shoes
then a police car pulls up
asks if this guy is bothering me
i say no
detroit continues to try and give me a coat
the officer asks if i'm ok, while looking at me like i'm crazy, since i'm in shorts, slippers, no coat and walking in the snow.
He finds out my name
says i'm on the missing persons list
apparently i had been walking for almost a whole day
detroit didn't realize i was gone for that long
cuz he fell asleep and went to work the next day
when he came home i wasn't there
called the police
now the officer is asking if he abused me
i say no
officer doesn't believe me
now he is confronting detroit
i continue walking
officer tries to stop
i say u have no right to stop me from walking, walking is still allowed isn't it
detroit runs up behind him
i scream get away from me
making the officer think he does abuse me
the officer pulls his gun
detroit stops dead in his tracks and asks what is wrong with me
wtf do you think?
"i'm insane
u have driven me insane
i dont' know why i agreed to come here
i knew this would happen."
all the while the office still has the gun on detroit...
still snowing...
dark...
our convo lit up by police lights and passing headlights
"i can't be near you and not have you
u just don't understand
i can't lay in the bed with you and not sleep with you
i can't sit next to you and not have you touch me
i can't have you whisper something to me and not kiss me
i just can't
i can't have fucking phone sex with someone i'm not fucking you.
wtf is that?"
officer realizes i'm crazy and drops his gun
at that point i faint or fall
due to the cold, i am still half naked, and the emotional strain
detroit runs up and catches
officer pulls gun again
didin't realize i had fainted behind him
almost shot detroit
now they are just both their
and i'm dying
cuz my dumbass wanted to take a walk in the cold
cuz i couldn't get any
peacjen: u just wrote a made for tv movie... I swear this is a LIFE channel movie
me: yup