December 23rd
December 23rd
"Up until now I didn't know what happiness was."
All I could do was stare at him when he said it. This is some sort of victory for me is it not? I had decided to help heal his soul that day by the window... This should make me happy. No. It does make me happy.
I wonder if I should feel guilty for that...
I enjoy his smile and his company. And I enjoy watching him play with the town's children. His smile warms me.
...
I wish... I could express that fact... But as always I can only stare with too many words and reactions trapped in my mind until it is too late.
I wish I could tell him how much it means to me... that he has been able to give me this happiness even as I have given it to him. But I can't. I think, to do so would undo everything...
"Up until now I didn't know what happiness was."
All I could do was stare at him when he said it. This is some sort of victory for me is it not? I had decided to help heal his soul that day by the window... This should make me happy. No. It does make me happy.
I wonder if I should feel guilty for that...
I enjoy his smile and his company. And I enjoy watching him play with the town's children. His smile warms me.
...
I wish... I could express that fact... But as always I can only stare with too many words and reactions trapped in my mind until it is too late.
I wish I could tell him how much it means to me... that he has been able to give me this happiness even as I have given it to him. But I can't. I think, to do so would undo everything...