Oct 29, 2005 04:37
It's really cold.
(..you finally woke up. I was starting to get nervous...)
Well it's you fault that I'm here in the first place.
(..Yeah, but it was worth it...)
My head still hurts, I don't care if it was worth it or not.
(..you'll thank me later, i promise...)
So what the point? Why drag me all the way up here?
(..don't suppose i can get you to jump off this time...)
No. That was a weird time for me, but I've sworn off leaping from heights.
(..it's ok, I was just kidding around anyways...)
So show me what you want to show me, and lets get outta here.
(..just look out over it all, take it in...)
Well, I can still see my place. I could probably get the same view from my window.
(..its beautiful isnt it? the sunrise...)
Since when did you get all sentimental about this crap? Im going home.
(..no, not yet. It will be here soon...)
This is stupid, I could still be sleeping. You know, where its WARM.
(..here it comes, look over there, to the north...)
What did you do!
(..im setting you free. apparantly it didnt quite work last time...)
This isn't funny anymore. Stop kidding around.
(..of course its not funny, people stopped laughing a long time ago. or did you not notice...)
But, what about the others? How are they going to get out?
(..dont worry too much about it, they're fine. just sit back and enjoy...
W...why?
(..im proving a point, and i'll do it with you kicking and screaming if i have to...)
WHAT! WHATS THE GODDAMN POINT OF ALL THIS! WHY THE THEATRICS?
(..seems to be the only way to get the message across...)
...
(..dont wimp out on me now, you know why I did this. your holding the answer in your hand. just get it over with...)
That thing is heading right for us. We gotta get off this roof, find some shelter.
(..That wont stop it...)
Your serious? Your willing to risk all this, all that progress we've made? Just to draw 5 minutes of honesty out of me?
(..i am hoping to get a lot more than that, but the first five minutes will be a good start...)
I'm not going to call her. I still wouldn't know what to say.
(..you've been saying that for years...)
A Steel Door. My Crystal Dreams. Your Turpentine Reality
That last bit is the second string of words to pop into my head this evening that I don't fully understand the meaning of. The first was really more of a question.
What is the difference between wishing for the impossible and wishing for the improbable? Which is worse and why?
My first reaction was fair and simple. Wishing for the impossible is worse because you know that it will never come true, whereas the improbable is simply unlikely. That might have been your initial response as well. So whats the problem with that? The problem is that I keep looking at the wrong word, the word that changes. Impossible and improbable.
To me, wishing is sitting by the phone hoping someone would call. Waiting for that job to call you back. Wishing is idle hoping. I hope my band will make it. I hope I pass this test. Kinda lumps in the same place as prayer, but thats another story entirely.
If you wish for the impossible, will you ever be disappointed? If you wish for something that can't happen, what reason is there for you to not continue to wish for that impossible dream?
When you wish for the improbable, you become an idle spectator in an event that has a chance to come out favorably. If you want someone to call, call them first. If you want that job, go back and tell them that until you get it. If you want your band to make it, play your hearts out every chance you can get till you make it.
Will you succeed? Who knows. I certainly do not pretend to know anything about the future. But as long as you are idle, as long as you sit by that phone, it will not change. Grab onto that chance and fight for it. And if something is not worth fighting for, it certainly is not worth wishing for.