heya
today was kinda blob... leslie cheered me up a lot today... i hope to god me and tom can still be best friends... god, that bugs me... he says he will but what will happen when he gets back? i just miss the kid... anywho lately ive been on "the edge of my seat" lol... thinking about my idiot father... dreams and shit... god they suck so bad... its like i cant force my brain to just stop thinkin about him... i know he is never gonna change and he doesnt care so why am i waiting like a little bitch for my father to appologize to me and tell me he loves me... its never gonna happen... why cant i just let it go... i want to so bad... i got the perfect life right now finally and now i have to think about the person that fucked it up in the first place... dont make sense does it... lol. o well... i got my friends and family to help me through it... im good... im stressed but actually in a really good mood right now.... need to talk to da best friend soon tho... and slut im so glad we got to catch up.!!! at taco bell... lol.. hahhaha... i love ya guys.. bye....