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[willievrb4given]

sup, havnt updated in awhile... hmm.. well school is aight i guess.. my 4th hour with mr. pointy is halarious... and i get to leave at noon.... me and ricky are gonna go to arbys.. !!!!! so excited... lol... she's never had it... can you believe that... anywho.. things been gettin to me a bit lately ever since i talked to someone.... i was told i have changed ... well i cant help it... it happens... maybe i matured a little bit in the summer ya never know.. just cuz im not as obnoxious as i was.... she says she dont like it but as long as im happpy... and that drove me nuts.. she's my very best friend and she says she dont know me anymore after 5 or 6 years... wtf is that... im tryin so hard to apparently change back to the way i was.. but i really dont want to ... i like not havin drama... i dont have any of it anymore... and if i do its my choice to let it bother me... im not overwhelmed anymore.. and it feels awsome... i jsut felt liek i was a prisoner in my past.. and i finally broke out.... she told me our friendship is 15% of what it used to be.. it goes two ways.... and she told me she wants it back the way it was... i dont think i can do that... anymore... maybe its true that our 5 years of friendship was just based on drama.... cuz now that their is no drama we are not as close anymore... but if we dont hang out anymore i will miss her.. comon she was like my sister.. the drama just got overwhelming and i jsut needed out... anyone understand? anywho.... im "working" right now lol.. and i got a letter from tom yesterday he's got atleast 2 months left to go...!! cannot wait till he comes home.. he told me he wants me to take someone to homecomin and have fun becuz its the last homecomin dance of high school... but i dont know if i want to... who knows.. i was already asked by two people to go to homecomin but i dont know if that is what i want... i know ill have fun without a date , but it'll be fun with one to.... the dinner, pictures you know... everyone comin to a house to hang out before... hmmm.. i dont know... but my senior year kicks ass.. thats all i gotta say .lol.. very short.. strength training is awsome... i had to run today tho which i hate... but j johnson and sean and josh , cory, matt, gregory, rupert and them all made it fun.. lol... well i gotta actually do some work and file some stuff... so see ya later... wuv ya

~* Tom & Amber *~
4-16-05
muah i love you baby!!!