Jan 04, 2007 03:31
"There are times when one wonders how far they can go... Without money. It's like oxygen; gasp for it and live, or hold your breath, hold out, and suffer. Sure you can eek by on little wisps of air, but why not indulge? Why not take heaping mouthfuls, it's all your for the taking. All you gotta do is try, and try hard. My only question is ' How did a schizophrenic man get ahold of a gun?' Hearing a song called Face Down by The red jumpsuit apparatus I rock it out, to myself, and try to sing along. I'll learn it by heart by tomorrow's sunrise. With intelligence, mystery dissolves. But the more we see, the more we wish we didn't. Prying eyes often cry and always lie. some things hurt, not physically. But they're both as powerful, nemesis to each other. Which is why words are so powerful. Words and worse than punches, than bullets. Words kill people. Ideas can be deadly. As deadly as a pretzel. Be careful digesting your ideas or you might swallow something the wrong way. Take it the wrong way and choke to death trying to figure out 'For all my years and time, all my life, why am I choking to death on a fucking pretzel?' pathetic? possibly. increasing trend? definitely. To go so far, to do all this and then one day go "Well, I'm beat! I mean, I'm in second place and the finish line is only meters away, fuck it. I'm going to get drunk and work part-time!" is kind of feudal..."
And just then the truck driver ahead of me got out, walked to the corner, pressed the perpendicular crosswalk button, got back into his truck, and waited no more than 15 seconds for the light to turn green. We drove into the night, away from the Town-to-be-City. And as I looked around the empty car I said "fuck I've been wasting my life on frivolous things again".