Friends ...
My best friend dropped off a bocket-o-goodies for me today. It made my day.
Not to say that I didn't thoroughly enjoy the visitors I had today and that my mom brought me Thai food for lunch today ... but I do love the bucket. Lots of food and books, along with Hello Kitty stuff and a Disney fairy princess coloring kit. Yes, I am 36 years old and am very excited to color in my fairy princess book ... ha ha. But she knows that, that's why she bought it. I love her dearly.
She is now almost 8 months pregnant and is not allowed to go to the hospital to visit and therefore cannot come to visit me. Ironically, when she had her surgery and then when she had her first daughter, I had active infections, so the docs said I could not go visit her. Cruel cruel cosmos.
Props to the inventors of Skype, so that we can "see" each other anyway ...
We met in high school, freshman year. But now she's really more like a sister to me than just a friend. We've gone through good times and bad. Maybe we're not always both the best communicators and even if we go for periods without speaking for a while, when I talk to her we just pick up like not even a second has ever passed. Its so wonderful to have a friend like that. Doesn't matter what I look like, what I do, what I have - just to be accepted for me.
Come to think of it, I have a lot of friends like that. They just like me for me (or so I think ... ha). They don't want anything from me, they don't care if I drive an expensive car or are wearing the latest clothes (although that is fun). They don't judge me. For that, I am very greatful and lucky. Because the only thing that really matters in life is the relationships that you have with others. That is becoming more and more apparent to me as time goes by.
When I was younger happiness to me equated making a lot of money and being able to buy a lot of stuff. Now, I still want to be able to have a decent roof over our heads, but I don't care about all of the other incidentals. They're just that - incidental. Not needed to be happy. Finding happiness inside yourself and those you love and those you have the privilege of knowing is what's special in life. No pretense. It's what we need. To some extent, having cf has made me realize that and I guess I am thankful for that too.