I hate my heart sometimes!
Last weekend LilWill,Shiela and I came to a bit of an understanding about the whole breakup bit!Yeah sure LilWill dove head first into the "you haven't been the same since your father died"bit.But I can forgive that!He's right!I'll admit it!But "that"wasn't the issue.The issue was the fact that I felt hurt ,betrayed and lied to by Shiela.Simple as that!And I rewrote the note I was going to leave her the day I left the house,and I "thought"that would help her and LilWill understand my side of the arguement.For LilWill,I do believe it did.But for Shiela,it just seems to me as though it never sank in all the way.I guess that's what I get for doing my own thinking!
Basically,I expressed my discomfort and possible hurt feelings if she was to just,hop,right into bed with another guy real soon.I'll admit, the mere thought of her being in the arms of another man feels as though someone reached in and tore my heart out and ran over it with a bull-dozer!So......WHAT THE HELL?!!!!Right at this moment in time she is in the embrace of a dear and close friend(one that shall NOT be named)!Sleeping!And all weekend long,she's been doing eveything,(at least it seems to ME!!!!)to get into this guys........I don't know!!!!!!I really don't know how to,or what to think at this point in time.And it's killing me!I want to yell,kick,cry,scream obsenities,but I don't want to do or say anything that I will regret later.It just hurts to god damned much to have rational thought.I feel like I'm going out of my mind!POINT,PERIOD,THE END!( for those of you who will understand the symbolizm)
Sorry for the rant y-all!!!!
Later!
Will
Basically,I expressed my discomfort and possible hurt feelings if she was to just,hop,right into bed with another guy real soon.I'll admit, the mere thought of her being in the arms of another man feels as though someone reached in and tore my heart out and ran over it with a bull-dozer!So......WHAT THE HELL?!!!!Right at this moment in time she is in the embrace of a dear and close friend(one that shall NOT be named)!Sleeping!And all weekend long,she's been doing eveything,(at least it seems to ME!!!!)to get into this guys........I don't know!!!!!!I really don't know how to,or what to think at this point in time.And it's killing me!I want to yell,kick,cry,scream obsenities,but I don't want to do or say anything that I will regret later.It just hurts to god damned much to have rational thought.I feel like I'm going out of my mind!POINT,PERIOD,THE END!( for those of you who will understand the symbolizm)
Sorry for the rant y-all!!!!
Later!
Will