True Love
Okay so the other night I posted an entry that confused and hurt someone very dear to me. I almost lost the love of my life, again. My feelings have been so out of whack with all of this stress. But hopefully some of this will calm down soon. I hate hurting people’s feelings, especially the man that I love. I AM SO SORRY!
Now with that said, after Micheal and mine argument on Wednesday, we made up. Our love for one another is strong enough to make it thru 1 split up and 1 almost complete break-up. And I hope that this was our last time telling one another that one of us wants to end what we have. And honestly, finding out that Micheal wants to end our relationship just kills me! I think about it, and the more I think about us being apart hurts more than anything! The way that I see it, I have already lost 2 wonderful men that were in my life. (My uncle Dale and my Papaw) and I am not ready to lose the man of my dreams. I personally believe that if I lost Micheal, I would emotionally, mentally would disappear as well. And that I would be alive….but my spirit would be dead. Does any of this make sense??
Anyways, after we made up, I went to his place Wednesday night (after a whole day of kind of relaxing in a pool). As soon as I walked in, I felt the urge to cry. (But I didn’t, I felt that I had done enough of that over night) Instead, I just held on to him as long as I could. And then we watched the Kids (Buddy and Lilly) play a little bit and give them the attention that they needed. And then Micheal gave me red roses. (I have never received red roses from him. I normally get daisy’s seeing how they are my favorite besides lilies.) The roses were in perfect bloom, full and a deep red color. They smelled so sweet but yet they had a hint of musk; that it kind of reminded me of his cologne. But after I received my flowers, we went and sat on his couch and started to watch “Dodge ball” but I fell asleep during the movie, while lying in his lap. And then I woke up looking into his eyes. It was wonderful.
As for today, I went and got back in Crystal’s pool starting at 9am. Around 11:30 Micheal showed up to go swimming as well. And we just relaxed and had a nice time. The water was amazing. We both got some sun, but the best thing about it was the time that we had together. I love how we were able to just relax and just enjoy the water and each others company. Later today (Friday) I went to work and Micheal went to the salon and did his stuff. And then I talked to him during my dinner break and we agreed that I would come over tonight after work. So after work, what did I do? I went to Micheal’s. And I must say we had the best time ever. I love just being held by him. I love being able to lie next to him and talk. I love to have the feeling that I am complete. I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT MICHEAL!!!
Well, it’s late. And I have to work over time this weekend and for the next 3 weekends. So since I gotta have to be at work in 12 hours, I figure, I should be getting in bed. SO good night! And I will update more later.