the shit we do

[wildwhitney]

what comes next when you want to keep trying
but you have already given up
i want so badly for everything to be how it used to be
so much that everything else that happens just hurts
but the reality is nothing will ever be how it used to be
and not one person can change that
i need so badly to be better person
to be a more forgiving person
but i didn't know how hard it really could be
they say you need to just forgive and forget
with me i don't think i am capable of either.
but one day maybe i will
one day maybe i will move on
maybe one day i will understand
and maybe one day i will accept it.