mindset

[wildwhitney]

take things personal
and it really doesn't get you that far
for some reason i do that far to much.
and it always just gets me feeling low.
who knows half the time it could just be a personal blow but i guess if its not super obvious then who knows.
writing is all i know how to do when im stressed or mad or anything really
i dont know what i am going to do with the rest of my life.
but who does.
i always wonder how good im doing
in everything
or if im just kidding myself
and i should be going in another direction
i believe i am a very lazy person
not in every way but right now i could potentially be starting my career and im doing nothing about it
but i feel like if it is supposed to happen it just will or something will kick me in the ass to do something to make it happen
idk
maybe i'll never be satisfied
i think ill just go with the flow i seem to be real good at that.
i have a runny nose and its august
if it should happen everything will fall into place
and sometimes when its not right everything will scatter.