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okay, i have no idea what to do, lets start with my dad, him and my stepmom made up all of these new rules, and yeah they really fucking suck ass!! on another note, adam has had a game every fucking night this week, so i havnt got to see him that much, thank god that tonight was his last game!! i dont know what to think, bacause the other day when i talked to him his friend robbie answered the phone and talked to me for a little bit while adam was in the store, he asked me what i was doing the next nite, and that he had the house to himself. Well, i didnt say anything cause i was hoping that he was talking about me and adam staying over there, well i had to work and shit so i didnt even ask to go out!! Adam went though, and he told me he didnt get any sleep at all!! ..... he said one gurl came over, and she was for robbie, but he got pissed bc he didnt get any anyway, now wouldnt u think that since robbie had a gurl, that gurl had a friend, and she came over too!!, yeah im really trying not to believe that, but i cant help that im not that fucking stupid, i think what im gonna do is just ride it out, cause im like head over heels for this boy, and if he wants to do me wrong, its gonna be on his concience not mine, i mean whenever i find out for sure im gonna cry my fucking heart out, but im just trying to have faith in him for right now: ........ i told adam that i was a virgin and that ive never went down on a guy, knowing thats a fucking lie, he believes it, but my intentions werent to lie to him, they were just to let him know that he wasnt getting in my pants, cause u know tht if i would have told him the truth, then he would have thought i was easy!! the thing is is that he keeps making little comments, and doing little things letting me know that he wants me, im just afraid that it is all just bc thats all he wants!!! I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO... i really do want to do him, but there is no way in hell that i am with all this shit still up in the air, and i have to know for sure that he feels like he loves me!! tht is gonna take awhile!!! My new friend krystal is awsome, her friend Jessy is SUPER FUCKING HOTT!! I mean omg, he where nothing but A&F and H...o...n...e...y it is like undescribable, anyways he saw me my first day there and starting asking about me (hes 19) and when he calls and talks to krystal he ask if his girlfriend is working... (me :-) ) its so cool, well today him and Pj CAME up to the store to help out, and when them and krystal where taking out the trash, he asked her if he could take me in the back room(wink) she was like, shes not fucking u!! it was funny!!... then my other friend katie, her fiance's brother wanted to meet me, and hes kinda cute too!!, he came up to the store tonight also, all while adam was at his game!!, so i could have anyone of those i want, and i choose the one thats gonna do me like shit, and im so fucking head over heels for him, im gonna fucking take it!!! what the fuck dude, i think dieing my hair blonde, really did have and effect!!