shes a lover baby and a fighter.
im very good at being honest. with myself and with others.
i can see what im doing and understand why, good and bad.
i understand how gaurded i am.
i know what an amazing friend i can be if someone is worth it.
i realize that there is a huge difference between stupid smart and intelligent and that none of them are opposites.
im sure that i am going to do amazing things in my life.
im worried about camp.
i obsess over others opinions of me.
im perfectly ok with having only two real true friends. because i know that they are worth it.
im afraid that i will never find a guy who can keep up with me and keep me both interested and happy.
i love being challenged. by others, by a task, by myself.
im generally happy in my life right now.
i hate contradicting myself, but honestly, life is a huge web of contradictions.
i wish that any of the people i called tonight would call me back. i know at least one will not ever.
i have ridiculous amounts of patience for children.
i have no idea what im going to do for a scavenger hunt tomorrow.
i honestly dont know where i would be without carrie.
i didnt want to leave tonight and admit that summer of lame, 2k6 model, is about to commence. i want to party. i want to be young and carefree. ive loved these last two weeks w carrie and chad and reid. it just really hit me the wrong way when josh started talking about how mean i was and he dosent even know me. i was being mean. im not a mean person. but if that is all you show to someone, thats all they can know of you. i do think im better than people sometimes. i guess im just a biotch like that. but i can see the good in everyone too. people a lot of times just wont see it in themselves or even show it to others. i know i am goign places. i know i am better than some shit. i dont think thats cocky as much as confident and having faith in my future. i should sleep i have to entertain and take care of children in 8 hours. oye shit.
despite anything, i love life. i love my life.
its had just enough ups and downs to be absoloutley perfect.
i can see what im doing and understand why, good and bad.
i understand how gaurded i am.
i know what an amazing friend i can be if someone is worth it.
i realize that there is a huge difference between stupid smart and intelligent and that none of them are opposites.
im sure that i am going to do amazing things in my life.
im worried about camp.
i obsess over others opinions of me.
im perfectly ok with having only two real true friends. because i know that they are worth it.
im afraid that i will never find a guy who can keep up with me and keep me both interested and happy.
i love being challenged. by others, by a task, by myself.
im generally happy in my life right now.
i hate contradicting myself, but honestly, life is a huge web of contradictions.
i wish that any of the people i called tonight would call me back. i know at least one will not ever.
i have ridiculous amounts of patience for children.
i have no idea what im going to do for a scavenger hunt tomorrow.
i honestly dont know where i would be without carrie.
i didnt want to leave tonight and admit that summer of lame, 2k6 model, is about to commence. i want to party. i want to be young and carefree. ive loved these last two weeks w carrie and chad and reid. it just really hit me the wrong way when josh started talking about how mean i was and he dosent even know me. i was being mean. im not a mean person. but if that is all you show to someone, thats all they can know of you. i do think im better than people sometimes. i guess im just a biotch like that. but i can see the good in everyone too. people a lot of times just wont see it in themselves or even show it to others. i know i am goign places. i know i am better than some shit. i dont think thats cocky as much as confident and having faith in my future. i should sleep i have to entertain and take care of children in 8 hours. oye shit.
despite anything, i love life. i love my life.
its had just enough ups and downs to be absoloutley perfect.