its not hard to fall when you float like a cannonball
dear self,
you suck. you used to be lots of fun. now you suffer from insomnia as a side effect of chronic suckness. hes not that into you. youre really not that into him. youre just obsessed with things you cant have. how about that A you cant have in italian. get a little more obsessed wiht getting that. or loosing the 15 lbs youve gained since last year. that would be a good obsession. boys are just not a worthwhile obsession right now. esp that one. because, lets face it, he sucks more than you. except when hes totally cute. but basically no. enjoy all the amazing friends you have made here, relax and stop trying to force things to happen. most often you find what you want when youre not looking for it. over thanksgiving you will see some of your highschool friends who remember you as you used to be. decide if that is the person you want to be again. if not, thats ok too. as long as you stop sucking. oh and try to suck less at soccer in the near future. try and join that club team wiht kate. and apologize to your roomie for keeping her up just because you cant sleep.
and also. stop being lame. and depressing. youre not interesting to be around if you just want to mope. i know you like to drive people away and wish to die a lonely death, but for the sake of appearing semi normal, dont act like it. youre a social chameleon but should figure out what is your favorite role to play and become that person. oh. and wear sunscreen.
love, your smarter self.
aka insomniatic ramblings<3