living the nightmare
I seriously need to get out of this house. I need my own god damn space, I can't live like this anymore. Why does it have to be so fucking hard to find a place in Calgary? Why??? My life is a crazy chaotic situation right now. I have a great job though. I work at a sex shop and I love it. I am living the bachelor life, and it is awesome. Now I just need a fab pad to take hot people home to. It isn't sexy to take someone home to your mom's place. Lol. I am sick and tired of the lifestyle that I am stuck in living here. I am sick of the mess, and the lack of money/lack of motion. I wish that they would try harder. Or at least try even a fucking little bit. My health is suffering from lack of proper nutrition, and the stress that I am dealing with on a daily basis. There is so much anxiety built up inside of me, and it is making me very irritable and frustrated. I am so tired of all of this. I want to get the hell out of here. I hate feeling so trapped. I hate it so much. There are definetly some very good things happening in my life, along with some very strange things that I don't know how to feel about... but this shit is really starting to get to me. My patience has run dry, and I am now unwilling to help. I just need to get out of here. So badly. Ahhhhhhhhh! I don't even know what else to say about it. I am so angry and tired and fucking disappointed.