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hmm, where do i start? this week hasnt been bad....school has gone by pretty fast, tomorrow is friday:-) and next week is thanksgiving, thats pretty exciting...everyone will be home, and it'll be like the old lake mary before everyone left for college:-( aw thats sad:-( but yeah, lauren HORWATH COMES HOME AND I CANT FUCKING WIAT BECAUSE I MISS HER LIKE CRAZY AND I LOVE HER SO MUCH AND KATIE AND ASHLEY AND KERBY ARE ALL COMING HOMEEEEE THANKKKK GOD!!!!:-) i miss them like CRAZY! :-( this week has had its ups and downs, totally not going to sit here and right that im doing fine without john, cuz i dont think im doing F-I-N-E but he has be blocked, which i guess helps and iv looked at his journal maybe once? someone said he has pics up, i really refuse to look at those, i def know it would be upsetting, im sure its him kissing girls or something like that...i read that he like didnt take advantage of a girl, which doesnt suprise me like some ppl are saying, hes def not like that, i know who i dated for over a year, and its def not someone that woudl take advantage of a girl, so i was def really really happy to read that, because i would be totally disapointed, im sure hes gone back to all his drug doing, and booze hounding, but hes in college i guess thats all i can expect? maybe im just beating myself up for him doing stupid shit...whatever the case is, hes happy, and thats good, cuz if he were depressed, i think id be ripping myself inside out trying to help him, but hes not, he has a date friday, DEF not gunna pretend like i dont care, cuz i def do, but what can i do? soon enough, after awhile, and a lot of time, ill be dating too, it just kinda shocks me for someone that was so "madly inlove with me" got over me that quick, hmm, i dont know, im hapy hes happy tho...ok ill stop writing about this i just needed to let it all out, and john if ur reading this, this def isnt to make you mad, or make you sad, or make you anything, I JUST NEEDED TO LET IT OUT...butt chances of him eve still reading it is slim...
soo anyways, this week hasnt been that bad, got closer to so many more cool ppl, toby, tristan, zach, and the freshman girls that are trying out for softball, they are all so sweet, def the best group of freshman girls at LM!!! hahahahha last night i started talking to this mark kid, he cracks me up, def is EXACTLY like me, it makes me laugh...im not really quite sure what happened with cayce, my friend from WV, i guess she hates me now cuz of the whole johnt hing, which i guess is understable since she def favored their friendship more then ours, i just wish it wasnt like a hate or love situation, i realy was looking forward for everyone down here meeting her, since shes a pretty pimpgirl, im not gunan lie i def didnt wnat her staying with john at college, just cuz its a girl, and that makes me feel uncomfortable, but now thatj ohn and i are literally nothing anymore, i really wish we could still be cool, and be best friends like we were over summer:-/ mooooving on, softball conditioning is def kicking my ass hardcore, but iv lost weight so thats good, hopefully ill loose more and keep it off, blah balh balh iv been pretty tired lately DEF have gotten dressed up every single day this week and plan to tomorrow, everyone thought i coudltn do it (cuz i scrub it nearly everyday) but iv gotten up showered, straightened my hair, done my make-up and dressed up EVERY day this week!!!! it makes me feel better about myself....so im prob gunna keep up with it, annnnnnnyways, went to the mall yesterday with ro got s shirt and saw a lot of other shit, so i went BACK with my mommy and got a shit load of clothes, cuz i def need some winter clothes, abercrombie got new sweaters in, and i got jeans and a jacket and a hoodie and a couple shirts and some accessories, im supposed to go to cowboys with robyn tomorrow night, and cowboys was fkin AWESOME last weekend, but toby invited me to his house cuz his parents are outta town, so im contemplating on where i should go, im thinking toby's since cowboys is there every firday night and tobys house with no parents isnt....and he said that we could want the notebook, SUPERRRR AMAZING MOVIE!!!!!!!!!!!! it all depends on if hilary can go or not tho, saturday night i heard theres a party at this lyman kids house and jen wants me to go with her, but if i go to cowboys fridya theres now ay i can handle a party on saturday, im such a weakling, PLUS katie and lauren and ashley all come home next week and OMGOSH insane parties then, cuz mys ister and lauren put together equals a lot of fun fucking times:-);-) alright, im going now, later gator
soo anyways, this week hasnt been that bad, got closer to so many more cool ppl, toby, tristan, zach, and the freshman girls that are trying out for softball, they are all so sweet, def the best group of freshman girls at LM!!! hahahahha last night i started talking to this mark kid, he cracks me up, def is EXACTLY like me, it makes me laugh...im not really quite sure what happened with cayce, my friend from WV, i guess she hates me now cuz of the whole johnt hing, which i guess is understable since she def favored their friendship more then ours, i just wish it wasnt like a hate or love situation, i realy was looking forward for everyone down here meeting her, since shes a pretty pimpgirl, im not gunan lie i def didnt wnat her staying with john at college, just cuz its a girl, and that makes me feel uncomfortable, but now thatj ohn and i are literally nothing anymore, i really wish we could still be cool, and be best friends like we were over summer:-/ mooooving on, softball conditioning is def kicking my ass hardcore, but iv lost weight so thats good, hopefully ill loose more and keep it off, blah balh balh iv been pretty tired lately DEF have gotten dressed up every single day this week and plan to tomorrow, everyone thought i coudltn do it (cuz i scrub it nearly everyday) but iv gotten up showered, straightened my hair, done my make-up and dressed up EVERY day this week!!!! it makes me feel better about myself....so im prob gunna keep up with it, annnnnnnyways, went to the mall yesterday with ro got s shirt and saw a lot of other shit, so i went BACK with my mommy and got a shit load of clothes, cuz i def need some winter clothes, abercrombie got new sweaters in, and i got jeans and a jacket and a hoodie and a couple shirts and some accessories, im supposed to go to cowboys with robyn tomorrow night, and cowboys was fkin AWESOME last weekend, but toby invited me to his house cuz his parents are outta town, so im contemplating on where i should go, im thinking toby's since cowboys is there every firday night and tobys house with no parents isnt....and he said that we could want the notebook, SUPERRRR AMAZING MOVIE!!!!!!!!!!!! it all depends on if hilary can go or not tho, saturday night i heard theres a party at this lyman kids house and jen wants me to go with her, but if i go to cowboys fridya theres now ay i can handle a party on saturday, im such a weakling, PLUS katie and lauren and ashley all come home next week and OMGOSH insane parties then, cuz mys ister and lauren put together equals a lot of fun fucking times:-);-) alright, im going now, later gator