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this place blows, i really wish i didnt live here, i can honestly say, i hate lake mary, and from now on, i really do thinka ll my journal will be about..is how much i HATE this place! i look outside my windows, and al i see, are the same houses iv seen for 12 fucking years of my life! IVE GROWN UP WITH EVERYONE FUCKNG HERE, yeah, i came here, went to pre-school for half a year, then started kindgergarten at fucking heathrow, went with alllll of thos bitches throughout that hell hole, (not really its a fuckin nice school, but it makes it sound more dramatic with the whole hell hole) so then i move onto greenwood middle school, which i did get a bunch of new ppl there, but they were STILL ppl that lived in lake mary...and that place really was a hell hole! GOD i HATED middle school and all i wanted to do was grow up and get to fucking high school...although i must say, my 8th grade year, i got pretty insane! high school was cool for about the first 2 months, and then it started to get FAKE, yeah FUCKING FAKE MARY! geezus, my whole life here, is surrounded by DRAMA! lake mary completely sucks! iv grown up with EVERYONE around me, and i really really REALLY wish i could move somewhere sooooo far from here and start COMPLETELY over! this place seemed so much better when i was younger, it really really did! yes, i love florida, being near the city is kickass, orlando is great, the beach is fabulous, im only a half an hour from daytona and new symerna, but when it gets down to it, everyone here, BLOWS, so i sit back and take in what katie tells me all the time "look at how many friends i graduated with" my sister had tons and TONS of friends in high school, but only TWO TRUE friends...lauren and ashley, and its just ridiculous! i hate going to school and seeing all the fake ass bitches smile and compliment you on ur outfit, and then turn around and say "wtf is she wearing" GOD i CANT STAND IT! its not even so much that pppl do that TO ME, its just im surrounded by it, im totally venting ONCE AGAIN, but every day it just gets worse and worse, i just HATE lake mary! HATE IT! i want to move, i really really really do, nicole is moving back to cali (or atleast thats what her away message said) austin moved back to TN, everyone thats moving is so damn lucky, i wish i could go...west virgina is so much better, yeah theres so much gossip up there, but its just not the same as here, no one really has that much money, and if you do, its really rare, i wish it were like that here, mabye some ppl wouldnt be as bitchy! everyone up there are basically friends, and its not about who got the new gucci shoes and the new abercrombie skirt...half the ppl up there dont even wear abercrombie, atleast where im from...everything up there makes me cry...the weather up there is so gorgeous, that makes me cry, i miss it, the leaves, OMGOSH!:-( the people, JOHN, my family, the streets up there, the fact that you have to go an hour and half just to get to a hollister, how there is NOTHING to do up there besides party...:-( wow, im really depressed now, i fucking HATE IT HERE!!!!!!!