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So, today I was talking to a client at work, in my tiny office (I work at a mental health clinic), and she suddenly fell over to the side of the chair, her eyes rolled back in her head, and literally all I could see was the whites of her eyes, and she started twitching a little and was unconscious. I can't tell you how scared I was. I was so freaking shocked and scared, and with a very shaky hand and voice, I called 911. I really felt like I was not in my body. call for help call for help call for help
She started to come to a little just before the ambulance got there. I told her that help was coming, and she mumbled that she felt very hot and very dizzy. She slipped down off her chair and on to the floor, and she laid there with her eyes closed until the ambulance came. I am so so grateful that it came very fast. Last I heard, she has very low blood pressure, and she has been put into ICU and they are doing tests. I am really worried about her.
It was so scary. I have not had any trainings lately in CPR. I was so terrified that she would stop breathing and then I would not do it right and she would die. I was so scared that she was dying right in front of me. I was shaking like a leaf.
Okay, that was horrible, and my main concern is that I am really worried about her.
But, then, if that was not traumatic enough, there is more. Starting just ten minutes after the ambulance left, and over the next hour, 4 of the people I encountered at my job actually made jokes. "What are you doing with your clients?" Even worse things were said and done right after it happened, but I actually can't bring myself to write the details right now.
My history is: I had to call the ambulance for another man not that long ago who collapsed in front of me (and who later died that same evening). And two other clients of mine have died not very long ago (in between our appointments). It really is so freaking hilarious to me that so many people have died in a short period of time. What the hell is wrong with people?
Ten minutes after a human being is taken to the hospital? This is the proper occasion for making a joke? I don't get it. I don't get it. I don't get it. What the hell? That is all I can say. Sorry, I don't know why I am writing about this on here. My family has expressed their sympathy, as has a couple of caring co-workers. Thank God there are still some people in the world who do care and who do know how to behave appropriately in a situation like this.
I am just still awake and up and alone. And, I am having a hard time. You know, just in a pretty bad space {crying}. I will be okay. Thanks for listening.
She started to come to a little just before the ambulance got there. I told her that help was coming, and she mumbled that she felt very hot and very dizzy. She slipped down off her chair and on to the floor, and she laid there with her eyes closed until the ambulance came. I am so so grateful that it came very fast. Last I heard, she has very low blood pressure, and she has been put into ICU and they are doing tests. I am really worried about her.
It was so scary. I have not had any trainings lately in CPR. I was so terrified that she would stop breathing and then I would not do it right and she would die. I was so scared that she was dying right in front of me. I was shaking like a leaf.
Okay, that was horrible, and my main concern is that I am really worried about her.
But, then, if that was not traumatic enough, there is more. Starting just ten minutes after the ambulance left, and over the next hour, 4 of the people I encountered at my job actually made jokes. "What are you doing with your clients?" Even worse things were said and done right after it happened, but I actually can't bring myself to write the details right now.
My history is: I had to call the ambulance for another man not that long ago who collapsed in front of me (and who later died that same evening). And two other clients of mine have died not very long ago (in between our appointments). It really is so freaking hilarious to me that so many people have died in a short period of time. What the hell is wrong with people?
Ten minutes after a human being is taken to the hospital? This is the proper occasion for making a joke? I don't get it. I don't get it. I don't get it. What the hell? That is all I can say. Sorry, I don't know why I am writing about this on here. My family has expressed their sympathy, as has a couple of caring co-workers. Thank God there are still some people in the world who do care and who do know how to behave appropriately in a situation like this.
I am just still awake and up and alone. And, I am having a hard time. You know, just in a pretty bad space {crying}. I will be okay. Thanks for listening.