It's like forgetting how to ride a bike.
Seems impossible right? Well get this: nothing's impossible!
Eric's made me forget how to be social. I'm not saying he made me do it or anything, but because of how I've chosen to live my life with him, it's made me forget.
It got so bad that I don't know where to find that comfortable medium in somebody else's company because I'm so used to spending no other time with anyone else and all my time with Eric. Basically, if they have busy lives and I get in contact with them at least SOMETIMES to try to ferment a relationship, then I give up. And then there are the people that I can get in touch with. I never want to run them away, so I try to contact them too often unless they want to do something, and it turns out that we always just end up forgetting each other. Or at least, I assume that's how it goes on there side.
But I think I'm going to make myself relearn it. For one, The Friend offers for us to come over again every time she walks us to the door. That's a good sign. We can't impose ourselves upon her if she's offering herself to us, right? It's pretty "sweet". [Sorry, I had to use " " because I never say that, lol]
And I actually made initiative--yesterday, Eric wanted her to buy something for him and I had the money. So I asked her if she was busy today and she said no. Unfortunately, Eric had to work until 10pm that night and she had to get up early, so she figured we'd only be able to chill for a little while. So I told Eric what she said and he said to tell her that I can go over there before he gets off work and chill for a bit and we can do whatever--I had already had plans to do that, by the way. Jeez, Eric is always trying to take the credit for some smooth thinking, lol.
ANYWAY -- so that's what we did, and there was hardly a quiet spot, and if there was, that was okay too!
It feels good sometimes just to relearn how to socialize. Other people are interesting and fun. Plus, they're just "other people" instead of...Eric. ;)