so so proud
Well today was a real test for me. I have stopped taken champix completley and omg was the craving real bad tonight, because your not taken the one thing that is sending signals to your brain that you dont want to smoke, my brain was telling me i wanted one, my conscience was telling me noooooooooo you dont lol. For 15 mins i fought with the demons, auguring with myself inside my head, then someone came in to the shop where i was working who smoked and boy did he smell. did i want to smell like that again??? NO I DID NOT :).
I won, i didnt smoke. i feel so proud of myself that i have passed this big hurdle :). I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders :). I still feel achey and ill but this feeling of elation makes it all worth while :)